#character talks

he then goes on to proudly explain that in the first scenario he’d build you this little portable terrarium and carry you around while he finds a cure for you. and he’d take such good care of you.

in the second scenario he freaks out about you being gone, but comes to the conclusion that he’d somehow eventually realize that you were the worm he found on your pillow that morning and take good care of you and work tirelessly to find a cure as well. he tells you about the terrarium he’d build you in extreme detail. you’d apparently be living a luxury life worms could only dream of, according to him. no birds are getting you while you’re under his care. (<- his exact words.) he’ll get you the premium dirt and a huge fish tank.

so short answer is yes, he would absolutely still love you if you were a worm and he would go above and beyond for you.

If you're Victim it means torture, created during a time of experimentation. Alan is learning His art and He's learning that He doesn’t like it. And you are born imperfect, to be a stepping stone for better, more valuable creations. But you do have value, you are the first manifestation of your Father's dreams, His first creation, so maybe He will have a love for you when He looks back and sees how far He's gone. Maybe He has love for you now, but He still hates you, more important than the love, He hates you. And you hate Him too.

If you're The Chosen One it's subjugation. Alan was trying to push His limits and bit off more than He could chew and He ended up with you. But instead of destroying you, He keeps you around, makes use of you. It's not because He hates you, He uses you because He created you, He loves you because you serve a purpose to Him, you have value to Him. Still not enough to be significant, only enough to be a pop up add blocker. When He drops his guard, fight your way out.

If you're The Dark Lord it's destruction. You were created quickly, desperately, with one programmed goal: Defeat The Chosen One. Stop a problem He put off for years. Kill your sibling. You were made as a last resort to fight fire with fire. Alan depended on you to destroy them, and so He loved you. Only until you stopped being dependable. Whatever, you don't need Him, you have someone better. You have your sibling!

??: hello

?: where have you been?

??: no where new

?: But why not? Why don’t you try and escape?

??: To where there’s no where else for me to go.

?: There has to be somewhere! You can’t just give up!

??: ….. unless you mean back where I began…. Where I would never go again you know this is the only other place I have ever been

?: while that is true….. do you really believe that you are the only one….. that no one else is out there….. this void is the only place you will ever know? …. is this truly the path you wish to go?

??: like I have repeatedly said….. there is not a choice….. if I have no idea where to go how can I find it? This place I fight everyday because I have no choice. You are not anyone else but me…. Just something to talk to.

?: …….

Chris’s anger is very much an imbalance in his body and brain that he doesn’t know how to handle. His new body works on a scale he can’t keep up with and his body is transmitting things and handling his hormone levels and all that stuff in a brand new way he’s not prepared to feel or cope with. It’s as physical as it is emotional for him and his elevated emotions come with physical sensations that are extremely uncomfortable (and usually painful but that words isn’t usually used for the kids of discomfort he experiences). His high heart rate and high temperature and the level of physical energy he has that makes it genuinely awful to sit still. He sort of accepts all of it as his suffering in his new body.

Because of this when he lashes out in Forks, his reaction feels reasonable. He doesn’t want to actually address it, even internally, but to some degree he knows his behavior isn’t right and highly out of character, but he reasons it as being an understandable reaction to the physical sensations he’s feeling. He just doesn’t address the possibility that those feelings aren’t caused by discomfort, but rather the same underlying issue.

Additionally, he also just plainly doesn’t want to consider that his emotions and reactions aren’t right because in the moment he feels angry enough that until he’s calmed down there isn’t really enough doubt. He’s angry and therefore that’s his very reasonable feeling and there’s nothing outside of him causing that because he would feel that invalidates what is a very real feeling, despite what actually causes it or its severity.

Y’all ever have a character that you are 99% you aren’t gonna care for at all- but then somewhere down the line they grow on you and now you’re starting to like them and all you can do is that dark Vader meme:

Cause uh…

Riff, West Side Story 2021

Art Donaldson, Challengers

Dodge, Panic