#chaotic-neutral

All I can say is... Six of the people listed above will definitely be in the story, seven counting Zoe but she is actually in a promotional thing for the story and will probably be showing up within the next three chapters. (Maybe, if I am thinking about my timeline clearly enough.)

I was recently invited to join a nearby Pathfinder group (woo-hoo!) so I decided to do a quick drawing of the character I have in mind - a CN human rogue with, among other things, the Exotic Weapons Proficiency (Whip) and Improved Trip feats. Back to a semi-cartoon style for this one.

omg thanks! i also installed the block posts one, this is life changing. I wanna marry Xkit guy

Well, I know he was a drunk, and obnoxious and stuff. But there was a certain point in the movie--I think somewhere between the scene where Jim cuts his hand as part of a Satanic witchcraft ritual and the scene where he throws Pamela into a closet and sets the fucking closet on fire--that the movie totally lost me. I didn't even watch it to the end because it was so absurd. Hahah.

Believe me, sometimes I don't even know why I still belong to that group. But CIG did not leave the group, and it really isn't about that. It's about the fact that she made that comment, and not one person defended NP. It's that the group owner was one of 2 people who "liked" CIG's comment. It's my frustration at this stupid double-standard of there being some huge difference between the people in MNAD posting about wanting to touch Nez's dick and people posting about wanting the Monkees to touch each other. It's that I feel like I won't ever be able to attach my real name to anything related to the Monkees because no one will take me seriously (and I am in no way ashamed of the slash or of what we do, but instead frustrated by the stigma that these things create). I've thought about all this stuff in the past, but this whole thing has pushed it all right up into my face. Ugh...

But when I try to look at myself, I don't see what real "visible" talents I have. And that all kinda ties into the fear I have related to getting a real job, a fear that I have had for a long time now. It's cause I'm honestly not sure that I have any valuable, real marketable skills. I mean other people are super good at math, or they can build things with their hands, or they're experts at varying computer software. But I don't have any specific skills that are unique or important, at least not that I can really see, and so that's why I was feeling semi-useless earlier.