anon who asked abt the reason why you left the cw programme andā¦ thatās so true. the fact that arts is considered a privilege means that those who enter such courses are of a different lifestyle than your normal average joe. i canāt put my finger on it but the art schools from where iām from have such different vibes from your regular art schools not just because itās an art school but because there are so many people who justā¦ arenāt normal. not to say they donāt have normal/relatable problems or they are entirely different from society at large, but the subtle difference will always be there because the lifestyle is different.
yeah! i genuinely hold no personal grudges against them because the circumstances that theyāre in (and that i am in) arenāt their fault but i just... donāt feel like i belong in the field. and thatās fine.
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curious! but what about studying / pursuing cw made you realize it may not be what you want to pursue?
(it got long again soā¦ sorry!)
iām going to be completely honest now because i think iāve been skirting around my actual reason for my prev. answers hahahah but it was largely because of the people i was working with and surrounded by while i was in cw (i.e. other students, class and block mates)
the professors are GREAT, iāve never had a bad professor and my absolute favorite one still was from cw (i miss him dearly he was amazing) so i never had any problems with that. other students werenāt unkind or mean or anything but i just didnātā¦ vibe with them?
when youāre living in a 3rd world country that does not value the arts and humanities, art and the pursuit of it are difficult when you donāt have the privilege (and i believe that shouldnāt be the case honestly. i wish it wasnāt.) and spending two years in cw made that sink into my soul deep lol iām not very privileged and there was a clear gap in that among my peers in the program which made it hard for me to keep up and relate to the people i spent the most time with. in no way do i harbor any grudges for them or have bad beef with them but i realized that i donāt see myself being in the same situation and working with the same type of people 5, 10 years from now. to add to that it just felt too lonely, being there and writing graphic non-fiction essays about my goddamn childhood trauma hahahahah š
this is definitely a very personal experience and it does not reflect how the cw program as a whole is. i just had trouble finding āmy peopleā in the program. i had also guessed that my passion for writing wasnāt enough to push through, yk? bcs if it was i wouldāve stayed. and thatās fine! iām happy with how things turned out and now i feel much more at ease when i write stuff for silly, sexy fictional people
oh yes. because of the movie release, i have been into haikyuu as of late. i don't mind the recs! also, that is a course i've never heard of before but it does sound interesting. is there a reason why you switched from creative writing to that course? why that course? happy to hear you enjoy what you're learning! i think that's the most important haha
i actually have a notion link of my recs! itās here. thereās not a lot there yet, since iāve only really started logging in my recs recently. i havenāt added the rest of my reads from the past years!
blis is also something iāve only heard about recently, tbh, which is funny because thatās the program i shifted to. i think i mentioned my reasoning for program changes on this blog before but basically, while i was 100% sure i wanted to take up cw when i was applying for uni, over time i just felt like i wasnāt growing. itās a me-problem, actually. i genuinely enjoyed and learned so much from cw but i never felt like i fit or belong in that field? i love it, sure, but i just canāt get myself to feel like i /want/ it seriously. and with that internal conflict i felt like i would just come to hate literature in general when i force myself to push through, and i didnāt want that. i love literature.
i was certain that i wanted to shift out but i didnāt know where. just went through our universityās shifting/transferring guide document and saw blis. itās the first time iāve heard of it hahaha then i just researched about the program and felt like it was perfect! especially since i found out that thereās still āliteratureā in the program in the form of librarianship (iām taking up childrenās and young adultās literature as my specialization!). so itās a win, since some pieces of cw/literature was still there, but i wasnāt feeling so oppressed because blis is so interdisciplinary and i could do so much with the program!
drop the ao3 recs!!! and also, if you're alright with answering, what is your major?
iāve been reading haikyÅ« fics actually! i havenāt read much genshin yet recently but i have a few bookmarked ones from when i was actively reading some months (years?) ago. lmk if you still want the recs!
my current program is library and information science, i shifted after my 2nd year from creative writing! itās a really great program and i love it š«¶
happy to see you on my dash again! how have you been?
hi! iām happy people still think of me š„¹ iām doing fine, my semester ended exactly a week ago so iām now in iām-finally-free-but-i-donāt-know-what-to-do mode hahah itās been a long time since i last had free time! (also since itās my first year in my new program hahah)
writing-wise i have no news about myself (yet) but i have gotten back into reading (just cried myself to sleep last night over an ao3 fic) and some good reads are what i need to finally be enthusiastic about writing again š«¶
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what is the borderless window option for genshin youāre talking about? iāve never heard that before
i was talking about the borderless window option in the display mode, in the graphics section of genshinās settings! i always use this option in the many, many games i play since i use two monitors and it makes switching through tabs and windows easier.
