I’m Home.
Hi everyone, I know it’s been a while and I’m sorry about that. I really am. You all deserve an apology about what’s happen over the last few months. I want to kinda give you a brief overview of what’s been going on in my neck of the woods. What really kinda kicked me in the ass was school. Which some of you do and some of you don’t know that I started college after being forced into it by my high school. I thought it was a great thing, so did a lot of people. Then they forced 9 classes a Semester on me and I had to work nights with a three mile bike ride to work and a three hour bus ride to school. It was killing me. So I dropped and took online courses to finish up my schooling. Lemme tell ya, that was a clusterfuck.. I got my diploma, yay, but I was nearly dead by the time that happened. Then I started a new job that required me to move. It was alright, and much needed because it was full-time. Then I had a really... really bad spell of depression. My girlfriend of about two and a half years dumped me. I mean... hard core. I don't think I ever had as hard of a time recovering from this relationship than I have any other. And I do mean I got low... really low. *sighs* That's a whole other story that I don't plan on playing the violin for. I guess it fizzles down to that I didn't want any contact with the outside world for a while. I lost myself in a job that basically beat my will and personality into a hole, lost several of my friends to either death or just didn't want to deal with me, lost my girlfriend who I planned seriously having a future with one day, and then rebounded from another bad relationship because I'm a stupid 'adult', moved, dropped out of school to restart via online (That they didn't give me the option of in the first place), adopted a cat, moved again, lost all hope and then hit rock bottom. It's... insane, that I managed to keep some people in my life. And I'm truly grateful for them. I had so much shit going on, and then Tumblr changed it's template, I was just in no right mind to keep RP'ing and able to enjoy it. I lost Cassander as a muse whose been with me for god knows how long too. I just... couldn't handle it at the time. I'm happy to announce though that I'm coming back. I took some serious time to break away from the stupid shit I was doing and trying to force myself to be happy when I clearly wasn't. I have plans, goals and expectations again that I had clearly lost over the last few months. The best times of my life were on Tumblr with you guys and so many more... and I lost myself in my mini identity crisis as my best friend calls it. I got low, and I'm still kinda in recovery from some of the things that happened. 2015 has been one really wild year for me and I'm happy to say that I'm opening the blog back up for stupid stories, cat pictures, and old school roleplaying. If any of you are still around and want to rp with me, please let me know. <3 I missed all of you so much and I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to resurface. Much love, Cassaundra & Cassander
