#ceaseand-exist

This is a rec list of Larry fics that include a soundtrack for the fic as requested in this ask. You can find my other recs here. If you enjoy the fic, please leave kudos and comments! You can also find fic fests based on these 1D albums or solo albums: MITAM, Flicker, Pink Album. Also, a FOUR fest will be happening in the fall!

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🎧 all we can do is keep breathing, @avocadolouie​ (E, 310k, Grey’s Anatomy au, medical au, doctor Louis, father Harry, Seattle, slow burn, angst, mutual pining, hurt/comfort, grief, character death)

🎧 Take My Breath Away, @realitybetterthanfiction (E, 153k, Top Gun au, pilot Harry, flight instructor Louis, angst with a happy ending, hurt/comfort, injuries, PTSD)

🎧 Escapade, @haydolce​ (E, 146k, sound track link here, fake relationship, escort Harry, rich Louis, prostitution, fluff and smut, wedding, bedsharing, many dolce fics have soundtracks you can find here)

🎧 Own the Scars, @crinkle-eyed-boo​ (E, 144k, friends to lovers, drug addiction, angst with a happy ending, uni au, recovery, addict Louis, slow burn)

🎧 Wild Love, @daisyharry​ (E, 130k, friends to lovers au, fake/pretend relationship of sorts, secret relationship, 40 Days of Dating au)

🎧 if it kills me, @nobodymoves (M, 110k, The Office au, mutual pining, angst with a happy ending, fluff, friends to lovers, miscommunication, slow burn)

🎧 Heading for Limbo, @kingsofeverything​ (E, 100k, friends with benefits, miscommunication, famous/not famous, famous Louis, photographer Harry, drug use, smut, sexuality crisis)

🎧 Do Not Go Gentle, @afirethatcannotdie (E, 70k, enemies to lovers au, hospitals, Grey’s Anatomy inspired, friends with benefits, Seattle, doctors, smut)

🎧 like cabbages and kings, @nobodymoves (E, 60k, Alice in Wonderland au, fantasy, magic, magical tattoos, pining, childhood friends to lovers, d/s undertones, recreational drug use, royal Harry)

🎧 Finding Lou, stylinsoncity (M, 60k, bookstore au, Los Angeles, pining, robbery, angst, fluff, smut, minor character death, past character death)

🎧 Far Away., @got-stars​ (M, 57k, exes to lovers au, song fic, angst with a happy ending, flash backs, jealousy, songwriting)

🎧 Looking Through You, @allwaswell16​ me (E, 41k, songfic, famous/not famous, friends to lovers, angst with a happy ending, songwriter Louis, singer Harry, roommates, pining, jealousy, smut, sexual tension, confessions)

🎧 Still Deep in Us, @graceling-in-a-suit (T, 41k, fantasy au, post-apocalyptic, mermaid Louis, magic, falling in love, mentions of death, grief, angst with a happy ending)

🎧 maybe we’re perfect strangers, @highrry​ (E, 39k, famous/not famous au, famous Louis, not famous Harry, music festival, Caribbean, summer, angst and fluff, smut)

🎧 no matter where you are (no matter how far), @ceaseand-exist (E, 35k, Everest au, climber Louis, climber Harry, minor character death, guide Niall) 

🎧 what this world is about, @bloubird​ (E, 34k, high school au, 1980s, period typical homophobia, football, smut)

🎧  You’re the Light, @allwaswell16 me (E, 31k, writer Louis, photographer Harry, assistant Louis, boss/employee, forbidden love, social media, newspaper, pining, jealousy, angst with a happy ending, smut)

🎧 Six Weeks, @londonfoginacup (T, 20k, coffee shop au, hurt/comfort, homophobia, post it notes, Christmas)

where is my art?

I won’t bore you with my personal history too much, but when I was a creatively frustrated newspaper reporter, several things drove me to get involved with writing fiction: A need to do something satisfying, fortified by an anger at some boorish, incompetent editors, that motivated me to find an outlet for it; and once I got involved with two online, story-style RPGs, the shared responsibility and obligation to do my part. I pleased my bosses to keep the paychecks coming, but I *really* didn’t want to disappoint my fellow gamer-writers. Maybe I’m a masochist, but it was fun, and I wouldn’t be sitting here typing to you if I hadn’t done it.

My advice is to get a little angry at the fact that something about your day job is stealing from your love of writing. It can be an existential anger (please don’t take it out on the other humans, tho!). Stir up your passion to write what YOU want! If you want to write, you deserve to write for you and no one else. 

And if you are so inclined, get involved with a writing partner (our Writing Buddies will re-launch soon) or a group where you have a gentle sense of obligation to participate and can receive positive reinforcement to do so. My luck with Storium hasn’t been so great in terms of games (aka collaborative stories) not dying, but it’s worth a look. There are some excellent, writerly options, you just need to vet your choices carefully. Or start a story of your own! There are also a quantifiable shit-ton of other online games with strong storytelling, too. 

I typed “tenement life” into Google, and it auto-completed with “in 1900,” so I clicked it. Looks like you might have some luck if you start there. Also found this museum site. 

lo please don't be mad at yourself, your feelings are so so valid. i'm probably more secretly sad about ziall than i am about zayn & i fear i keep coating over the denial like grit in an oyster hoping for a pearl. but you're right about the material bits mattering. i feel that too. :( sending you so so much love and gentleness, i hope the movie helps <3 <3 <3

syar i hope you are familiar enough w/ lotr to know what i mean when i say that you are like the light of earendil--which shines when all other lights go out--that galadriel gives to frodo. it saves his life before the end. you are so constantly calm and reassuring. all these messy awful emotions feel a little less daunting to sort through knowing you’re here w/ me. pinging back all the love & gentleness i can muster <333

feelings-hulk replied to your post “[[MOR] im not fine im so so so fucking sad. my chest feels like it...”

lo you are most certainly not alone and I appreciate your honesty so much. I'm sending gentle warm thoughts your way. <3

jamie thank you so much for your kindness <3 i really appreciate it. i honestly thought i was the last lonely kid this side of the fence & it’s extremely heartening to know that, in fact, i’m not.

nicethighsnicereyes replied to your post “[[MOR] im not fine im so so so fucking sad. my chest feels like it...”

You are not alone in not being over it!!If I didn't have my boyfriend feelings about Liam I honestly don't know what I'd do rn. Ziall is so important to me. I'm not sure I'll ever be over it. I'm so sorry you're feeling it so much. I'm sending love

i honestly am so so happy that ppl have other parts of 1D to hold onto & love bc not only do 1D deserve that but ppl deserve to have things that have kept them anchored during the storm. i can’t explain how badly i wish that i were one of them, truly. liam is such a sweet teddy graham boyfriend, and maybe someday ziall won’t hurt so bad. all the love to you as well, darling <3

valencing replied to your post “[[MOR] im not fine im so so so fucking sad. my chest feels like it...”

omg lo pls don't be mad at yourself. i feel so much of this. i had more ships than ziall but i feel like i'm blogging from 2013 much of the time. i completely hear you on missing zayn in the context of 1d. i can wish him well on his other ventures but what i miss is the special presence and energy he had with the other boys. AND i'm convinced there are a bunch of us who have similar feelings. i personally can't cope with the celebrations of ot4 very well and have a lot of those tags bl'd.

ahh val yes completely :( there’s nothing in this world that i do not want for zayn in the way of fortune good favor success & happiness. i just mourn for the dynamics he brought to 1D. & i 100% have a hard time with ot4 things; i haven’t bl’d the tag but im very bitter towards it--especially instances where zayn has been forcibly cut out of something old for the sake of hailing ot4. i truly get so angry, & it makes it hard to be genuinely happy for their new accomplishments going forward. idk. sigh *sad hug* :(

smurkark replied to your post “[[MOR] im not fine im so so so fucking sad. my chest feels like it...”

I know, I know I know i know i know i kno :(((((

:’( </3 at least we’re here together

ceaseand-exist replied to your post “[[MOR] im not fine im so so so fucking sad. my chest feels like it...”

I feel the exact same way about zayn. Don't delete or feel bad. It's nice to see someone feels the same way I do, so maybe by posting about your feelings, you're helping both yourself and others

hope you had fun!

Um. You forgot "If I have two cups of two percent milk, then it's full milk!