Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
â Live Streamingâ Interactive Chatâ Private Showsâ HD Quality
Anya is LIVE right now
FREE
Free to watch ⢠No registration required ⢠HD streaming
clouds dissolve to rain by jyusichi17 Fic Commentary
While writing this series, I have been purposely vague and although I trust readers to connect the dots however they want for the story to come across, I thought it would be fun to share all the dots and how they connect with each other.
If you have no idea what I am talking about, this post is about the two fics in my Bittersweet series based of Seventeen's Mingyu x Wonwoo - Bittersweet release. The fics are as follows:
Things We Lost to the Fire
clouds dissolve to rain
This post contains spoilers and will quote the fics directly. If this is not your cup of tea, check this out instead:
Thing We Lost to the Fire - reference thread
clouds dissolve to rain - reference thread
bittersweet AU wip / fave moments / misc - tags
Other posts like this:
Things We Lost to the Fire Fic Commentary
Bittersweet Series AU Fic Commentary
clouds dissolve to rain Fic Commentary âŹď¸
Wonwoo as the main character
If you have read my fic commentary for Things We Lost to the Fire (TWLF), you would know that Wonwoo is the focus of the story. When coming up with the premise my whole intention was a character study on Wonwoo, specifically in the aftermath of Bittersweet MV. Everything about CDTR is based on this look he had in that MV.
Wonwoo is, at least in this piece of fiction, a very emotionally repressed individual and it causes him to only realize his long underlying feelings only six years later. It takes him very long to process his own emotions whether it is good or bad. Added with his very closed/private nature, it becomes an interesting combo. I honestly had the time of my life navigating how the world around him, 96-line and Mingyu, interacts with this.
His demisexuality, although not truly the forefront of the plot, still serves as some sort of complication to their dynamic due to the aftermath of his previous abusive relationship.
I also think that his openness to finally finding the courage to reach out to Mingyu directly lets him explore writing once again. This is not a coincidence.
Before Mingyu:
âNot really. I work with a magazine now. Havenât really done any of my own writing for at least a year now.â ~Ch. 1, CDTR
Just a few weeks after:
âI know when we last spoke you wanted a break from writing. Itâs been 2 years now, donât you want to write again?â
He has been writing, nothing substantial, just in random bursts here and there.
âIâll have to think about it,â Wonwoo answers.
~Ch. 11, CDTR
Bad Blood and it's influences
It's no surprise that after TWLF (titled inspired directly by Things We Lost in the Fire, Bastille) that CDTR will follow suit. Bad Blood heavily inspired Wonwoo's psyche in the beginning of the fic.
The streets surrounding him hid shadows of his almost forgotten memories. They crawl out, following him as he tries to side step them like pedestrians during rush hour but the soles of his shoes left wet prints, marking his every step, leading them directly to him. The memories refuse to leave.
The existential crisis of his youth, the uncertainty of his future, the feeling that everything he was doing was wrong and the sting of that friendship. The only bright light in this forsaken place was the shine of Soheeâs smile and happiness. Even though her presence cast a light that highlights the gaping hole in the walls of his mind in the silhouette of Kim Mingyu.Â
He sighs, feeling rather resolute that he was never coming back again. At least not anywhere near here anymore.
~Chapter 1, CDTR
Above text, heavily inspired by Pompeii and These Streets.
These streets are yours, you can keep them
In my mind it's like you haunt them
And passing through I think I see you
In the shapes of other women
~ These Streets
The plot of CDTR although not obvious, because of the nature of character study, is heavily influenced by songs like Weight of Living Pt I&II.
96-line friendship
In my notes I have written: Wonwoo practical, Jun supportive, Jihoon tough love, Soonyoung balance of supportive & practicle (not good with words).
In that alone is self-explainatory of their dynamic. It was evident to me that in order for Wonwoo to be part of society he needed very good friends. Wonwoo is also self-aware of this too.
 âYou okay?â he whispers...
Wonwoo hums, an ambiguous hum between yeah, he is and no, not really.
âAre you worried about Mingyu? Iâm sure whatever that was, there is an explanation.â
âYou heard that?â
Jun nods, combing the strands of hairs around Wonwooâs face with his fingers. Wonwoo lets him because it calms the strange anxiety in his chest. âSounded a little hectic but he also sounded like he would have rather talked to you than deal with it.â
âWhat are you two whispering about?â Soonyoung interrupts, sitting up so he can look at Wonwoo in Junâs lap. No one is watching the movie now, Jihoon is also looking at him.
âWonwoo is worried about Mingyu,â...
âBecause of the phone call just now? Did something happen?â Soonyoung asks, not really looking at Wonwoo but at Jun instead.
Wonwoo looks at Jun because he doesnât really know how to explain and somehow he doesnât mind Jun speaking on his behalf.
~Ch. 11, CDTR
I feel like this conversation perfectly captures their dynamic and how they support Wonwoo in exactly the way he needs it. Jihoon is silent but Jihoon was also the one who combed Hangang Park in search of Wonwoo.
Minghao as an Adversary
You may expect that in the aftermath of a love triangle, Sohee would be the obvious choice for an adversary. This however is not the case.
Minghao emerges as an anti-hero because is #1 Mingyu Protector. He is also aware that Mingyu never really got over Wonwoo from TWLF.
âHe wanted to leave.â
âHe did and I encouraged him. But you didnât even spend one moment looking for him when you returned,â Minghao says between gritted teeth.
Minghao is right. Wonwoo had thought about reconciling with Mingyu when he returned, the idea tossed around in his mind with encouragement from Sohee throughout the years. But in the end, he had never once done it, not until six years had passed.
âHe may have forgiven you for it but like I said I will be less forgiving. Hurt him and I will encourage him to leave you like I did six years ago.â
~Ch. 12, CDTR
Which is a direct callback to what Minghao said in TWLF.
âI just want to come back home, Hao.â Mingyu said, between sobs. He was suddenly inexplicably exhausted.Â
âThen come back. Donât stay there any longer than you need to.â... âIf itâs what you need to do, then do it. Stop thinking about other people. Think about Kim Mingyu.â
~Ch. 5, TWLF
Mingyuâs character arc
Mingyu has never had a serious relationship. Dowoon, his long time manager, points it out. He constantly finds himself in a state of disbelief too.
He is at first reserved about Wonwoo and his intentions because Wonwoo had hurt him in the past. But alas, love happens without his permission.
Before Wonwoo:
 The way he smiled was so easy, so bright that it attracted the part of Mingyuâs brain that likes shiny things; like a magpie to jewellery. But Mingyu has been burned before, so he replaced the smile on his own face with neutrality, the smile only serving as a reminder of the decisions he had made and stuck to for six years. He just canât be burned again.
~Ch. 3, CDTR
Once he was with Wonwoo:
The terrifying thought that he wants what they have now to last forever once again crosses his mind. It feels like overcast clouds in his chest, this thought of forever with Wonwoo, clouds that would dissipate to rain clearing the sky to better days. Or maybe the cloud foreshadows unstoppable rain ensuring eternal floods. ~Ch. 8, CDTR
He only admits to himself that things with Wonwoo are quite serious, after Dowoon points it out.
âWhy arenât you sleeping?â he croaks, voice rumbling deep, rough.
âBecause you are too perfect. Because I have loved you for most of my life. Because the very thought of losing you terrifies me.â
Original Characters
Not much to say about the OCs introduced. Jelly, Mingyu's temporary manager, is trans. It was in no way mentioned in anyway obvious but that is who she was in my head.
Totsđ
CDTR will continue to be dear to me. this genre of character study, although fun, is not as simple as it seems. haha. will i do it again probs not. do i love it? yes yes i do. well, till next time.
To celebrate 15 years of Tomb Raider, Crystal Dynamics is gathering original fan art from talented artists. Andy Park did an excellent job of paying tribute to the adventurous Lara Croft. More submissions found here.
Related Rampages: Avengers Assembled | God of War III
Tomb Raider - Rebirth by Andy Park (Blog) (deviantART)
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
â Live Streamingâ Interactive Chatâ Private Showsâ HD Quality
Anya is LIVE right now
FREE
Free to watch ⢠No registration required ⢠HD streaming