#cbb 2017

If another week passes  without info,  I guess I'll just post my fic without any art. 

This is my story for the Castiel big bang. It’s a story that was bugging to be written so I did it for this. I hope that you all enjoy!

Title: Learning to Live Again Author: Formidablepassion Artist:  cheldraws Rating: G Pairings: Dean/Cas, Charlie/Jo, (past) Cas/Daphne Warnings: Mention of past minor character death Word Count: 5385

Fic: [Ao3] Art: Tumblr DeviantART

Summary:  After the death of his wife, Daphne, Castiel spent years wallowing in his sadness and trying to move on. Finally accepting the invitation to a blind double date from his friends Charlie and Jo. Even if he can't find it in him to date romantically, maybe he could at least find a friend in this mystery guy.

They dance together for two more songs, speaking softly to one another as they press close. Cas isn’t sure if they are practically clinging to each other because of the attraction that they feel - something that Cas hasn’t felt in a while - or if it is because they both seek the comfort and understanding that they could only get from someone that has been through the same thing.

Cas learns about Dean’s childhood. In turn, he tells Dean about his life as an only child. They laugh about things they share about their friendship with Charlie and Jo. Cas feels comfortable with Dean, and that makes him uncomfortable. He pushes the feeling aside as he listens to Dean talk about his time on the LARP field with the Queen of Moondoor, and  Cas is suddenly sad that he has never taken Charlie up on the offer to join. He wonders what Dean would look like dressed in period clothing, then immediately decides that is not really something that he should think about when the image in his head is so appealing.

They fall into a comfortable silence and neither can stop smiling at the other. Cas takes a moment to think that this may be something that he could do. He really enjoys Dean’s company. He ignores the feeling of betrayal that weighs heavy in his heart. His smile falters and Dean opens his mouth to say something just as Charlie and and Jo walk up.

“You two ready?” Jo smiles at them. Cas’ body feels cold and empty at the loss of Dean when the other man pulls away from him. He nods and clears his throat.

“Yes. I believe we are.” He looks over to confirm with Dean, who smiles and winks. Cas smiles back.

They all walk to the car and this time the ride is much more companionable. Cas’ hand rests on the seat between them when he feels the brush of Dean’s pinky against his. Dean looks out the window as he talks to Charlie about the upcoming LARP event that they have. Cas watches his profile as he turns his hand over and slides it under Dean’s, lacing their fingers together delighting when Dean’s mouth curves up in a smile. Cas watches him the rest of the drive, the way the street lights play across his face.

Eventually, they pull up to a nice little house in the suburbs. Cas has been so lost in his thoughts of Dean and what it might possibly mean that Dean’s fingers are so tight and warm around his that he doesn’t realize where they are until Jo speaks up.

“Well Dean, we’re here.” Dean’s fingers squeeze a little tighter and he looks at Cas, eyes full of questions and possibly even hope.

(oh my god I posted this in the wrong place initially aaaAAAAHHHH)

yo what uuuup it’s that girl who never posts

This year I decided to take part in a big bang for the first time, and I was able to draw for an amazing story by @noxsoulmate called The Birthday Cake! It was super fun, and I got to do more watercolor, which is always entertaining. :>