Omigosh. Me? On notification? You're too kind and it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.

I try to be fair and not police other opinions because we are who we are and we like what we like but for me, the fandom has been a volatile experience for a lot of reasons. I felt pretty excluded towards the beginning because of reasons and I worked really hard to get to a place where I could get involved (with lots of help from the fandom) so it feels like I shouldn't give that up and go back to what feels like sitting in silence because I can't go into the tag.

But honestly, I just can't do it anymore. With popularity comes criticism and the volleying back and forth and I don't want to see it. I want to steal my faves and sit in a corner and hiss any time someone comes near.

Fandom is supposed to be fun. I've been on this tumble weed of a site for too long and we just never had this before. The only thing people were interested in was squeeing. People only wanted to talk about what they loved and the criticism was held under lock and key and was utterly filterable. Which I'm pretty sure isn't a word. But ya feel me. You literally have to experience everything at this point and that kind of barrage isn't good at the best of times.

I'm allowed to like that Porsche is a goddamn mess who doesn't know how to be a boyfriend since he's never been one. Let that sink in. He has never been a boyfriend. What is his point of reference for anything relationship related. His parents? Oh wait.

Something I didn't really say anything about but the fact that people believed Porsche to be too moral to commit murder. Maybe I'm projecting but I lost my parents before I should have and close together (to illnesses). But if they were killed by some asshole, despite being a moral person, I would have shot that bastard. The anger I feel/felt towards their illnesses, them, I can't describe it. Porsche is completely valid to act in either way. I'm not saying don't believe in his morality but don't think for one second that he isn't capable of that because that pain and grief hurts so bad. When they died he lost his safety net. No one can ever replace what a loving parent gives their child. None. His whole identity shifted in that moment and he lost not only who he was but who he should have been if life had been kinder.

OMG YOU RECOGNIZE ME BY THE CHERRY MAGIC HUG GIF??? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 that’s so sweet!! it’s my favorite gif aldjskdk

thank you so much for associating me with it! ❤️💙

catwalkninja said: i... should have said more :) um, hi. how's your day? have you been well? i was listening to the we are here album the other day and full on started bawling over no reason. i do be missing mx these days.

hi luv!!!!! no worries!!!!!!!!!! the quarantine fatigue is eating away at me every day feels the same i dont even know what im doing anymore... but in positive news i got my first dose of the vaccine the other day so!! there is a light!! 

Excuse me for ever giving the impression that I would be unhappy to discuss wwx's clothing! I love to talk about him and everything connected to his character design!

My gifsets distort the colours a bit but before becoming the Yiling Laozhu he has a bunch of darker shades of blues and purple in his clothing! So you are absolutely right that that is the last time we see him in Yunmeng colours!

( ↑ wwx in yunmeng colours but more blue-ish and darker than jiang cheng or yanli’s clothes and much less flowy and extravagant. you can sense the water of the lotus ponds in yanli’s and jiang cheng’s clothes and their accessories are more lavish (while still simple) but wei wuxian in his clothing is much more straight-lined. just one look and you know that he is growing up in an affluent and important sect, you can see the yunmeng colours, but still he’s an outsider in style. and we already get his trade-mark red peaking through.)

( ↑ as the tone gets more serious his outer robes get thicker, more armor like and the dark lilacs and blues make way for blacks and greys. but you can still feel the hint of dark blue and the patterns are reminiscent of flowing water - first gif - and muddy waters/lotus ponds)

The Yunmeng sect has been destryoed by the Wen clan, and even though this is the worst adversity Wei Wuxian has faced so far he hasn’t opted for a darker look or even incorporated more red. Instead he wears the most lilac and purple items we’ve ever seen before. As if he wants to express his belonging to the Yunmeng sect - also: I love Xiao Zhan’s stubble, I was super annoyed that on Burial Mounds he somehow was clean shaven....)

( ↑ The first time we see him in what I count as his first Yiling Patriarch look. All black, red & visible under robes and patterns that aren’t reminiscent of water but wood & stone and armor.)

( ↑ The last time we see him reutnr to Yunmeng colours. We are back with dark blues and purples, softer and more elegant fabric and the red & more visible under robes. He is pretty much back to his Yunmeng roots, just more mature.)

( ↑ After defected and making his way to Burial Mounds we get him very often in  his Yiling Patriarch looks. Much more red and only black to contrast with it.)

( ↑ To variations on the softer Yiling Patriarch. The reds aren’t as aggressive and he incorporates grey outer robes in his looks that almost look dove blue, reminding us of Yunmeng. The black is also much softer and not as stark. This is the final breather we get before the second sunshot campaign. Wei Wuxian’s clothes not only show us the simple and austere live he is living but might trick us into thinking that nothing bad will happen anytime soon.)

( ↑ The full Yiling Patriarch outfit. Both festive and intimidating. The red is now also prominent in his outer robes and shining bright. The pattern of his second robe reminds me of cold lava and the stone at Burial Mounds, sturdy and unsettling ⇨ very neat, Wen Qing wouldn’t care, but this is a great YP look 10/10)

( ↑ AND HE’S BACK! No one asked where he found his new robes but they are all black, no red shining through and some fun, flowy fabrics as outer layers, something we haven’t seen him wear before. The clothes wrap protectively around him, his belt is much broader and fastened tighter, but he’s also missing the stiffness of his past garments that were fit for a battlefield ⇨ The sheer outer robes of Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji’s matching white ones give me many ideas for sexy lazying in the Jingshi) 

( ↑ The first time we get Lan colours! He’s obviously wearing Lan Wangji’s undergarments but I like to imagine that after reuniting he incorporates some Lan colours into his outfits ⇨ someone give me Wei Wuxian stealing Lan Wangji’s clothing and wearing it...Wei Wuxian in that sheer white outer robe hmmmm...still not over that one)

( ↑ We’ve come full circle, this is the adult Wei Wuxian: black robes, red hairband but no red undergarments peaking through. Some things are reminiscent of what he wore during his Yunmeng days and despite some martial elements he looks much more mellow and relaxed)

I think it is pretty obvious that I adore the choices for Wei Wuxian’s costumes while having no understanding of fashion. This is just me overthinking everything and using every excuse I can get to talk about how fabulous these looks and Xiao Zhan are.

I like that they played with colour scheme for the characters while still staying true to the overall costumes set by canon (besides the Wen clan clothing which I am still mad about) and the visual storytelling for Wei Wuxian is just wonderful.

i’m still BAWLING about the mv, the whole storyline and the 46541654 possible intricate connections to past eras, i’m so sad and confused yet excited! they’re really taking us on an emotional rollercoaster this comeback!!!

OOOH like a destroyer 2.0 where they tried to find hyungwon but now this time, since they have more knowledge (i’ve seen people speculating wonho because he’s the one in year 2047 and he’s the one who woke up first), THIS TIME they’ll actually succeed in finding hyungwon BECAUSE IT IS their fate to meet again 

OK watching again and i have more to add! find you > destroyer > dramarama? because they seem a more coherent septet on destroyer and they are actively looking for hyungwon (who is lost) and perhaps after entering the train, that's where it got messed up and they're separated after? I mean... more ouch. but it makes a little more sense??? (someone needs to tell me what he says in the beginning of find you) sry to fill up your asks!

omg.. the find you > destroyer > dramarama sequence makes so much sense to me as well now that you mention it!! i agree there was no clear ending (good or bad) to destroyer like all they did was stare at the camera before it all blacked out so in that way the ending to that was really ambiguous

someone posted a rough translation of the lyrics here! it’s almost as if despite the different timelines, they still remember their lives in that one lifetime where they were all together and destroyer was just one attempt to get back what they once had before it ended.. while in dramarama, they have less memories but they still have that innate feeling of needing to find one another because of fate and in a way hyungwon was that connection to help bring them together with the watch and all so they won’t lost one another yet again in THAT lifetime

Ah, thank you so much! I’ll definitely check that out.

I’ll leave a link to the article here

And a link to We Are Gamily here