#catnpc

38. What was the best moment of the year for you?

possibly sad, but when i found out i got into a zine :) oh and when i made a new tumblr/ instagram for writing dumb shit and started getting followers! :)

45. Did your opinion of anyone change for worse?

uh yeah daily :) my dad is a cunt

disclaimer: i am not a catholic and i know little abt it...i was raised w/o religion but went to a christian school for years so any/all info i have here is...based on vague osmosis of information from that/media lksjdflksjdflksdj. also i think i did attend one catholic mass once but it wasn’t on purpose and it was Mad stressful

yeah i think lance’s family would be catholic lol but that’s not exactly controversial and seems to be the fanon interpretation overall

however i think lance...never would’ve really believed in it

i’m just imagining little tiny lance at mass trying desperately to sit still with undiagnosed ADHD...

his mom CONSTANTLY has to remind him of all the little things he’s meant to be doing. he does the sign of the cross hand motion incorrectly for YEARS and he always forgets to do the kneeling thing before he enters the pew

he will never remember all the prayers and stuff. his mom and dad r really devout about praying the rosary when mass starts and he just watches them and fidgets in his seat the whole time because he literally cannot remember what he’s supposed to be doing or saying

he always hates that no one wants to talk during church bc they’re all praying. he tries to sit and pray but he’s like? not sure what to pray for?

10 year old lance: uh...dear god...help me do that cool trick on my bike i’ve been trying to do. and? i have a math test coming up? ok cool thanks

he then looks around and realizes he’s still supposed to be praying. instead he sits there and imagines all his transformers at home and plays with them in his head

his mom keeps having to nudge him bc he’s making sound effects under his breath

most of mass for him is just phasing out and trying to pay just enough attention to stand when everyone else stands or kneel when they kneel or whatever

he likes after church though because his mom always lets him play with the other kids in the parking lot while she talks to all her church friends

as he gets older, he gets more stressed out by church. he feels...guilty, a lot of the time, and especially so once he starts realizing he crushes on boys

the catholic church doesn’t really have a great track record with the gays. even when they aren’t talking about it, he knows that he would be in trouble if he ever said anything about being bi

he once confesses feeling things for boys during confession

13 year old lance: i have a friend, elliot. he’s nice. but...sometimes i think he’s really pretty. is that okay?

priest: listen to me closely. you are being tested by the devil--

lance: haha cool i was just kidding ANYWAYS

he never says anything again

when he goes to the garrison at age 14, it gets...easier

he doesn’t really keep up with doing any of the catholic stuff. he feels less guilty, though

he still wears his cross necklace...he just hides it under his uniform

when they go to space with voltron, it’s about the same, he just doesn’t really have time to think about it

it’s easier to avoid without his weekly calls to his mom. it’s not even like she brings it up, but he just feels guilty whenever he’s not 100% honest with her

he’s pretty sure he’ll never tell her, though.

especially once he dies. it’s really hard to believe in things after that, especially things that tell him he’s wrong for loving who he loves

especially when there’s a boy that he’s falling more and more in love with every single day

they eventually get back to earth, and he’s not sure what will happen next, but his mom doesn’t seem keen to press him on his religious affiliations after he’s been missing for so long

his cross necklace now sits in a special box in his room. he still likes it, even if he doesn’t want to wear it daily