#catknapping

i had to walk away from an exfriend because they were being extremely abusive towards me and several of my friends and it lead to like 2 years of harassment and whiteknighting and victim-blaming so I’d exercise caution with people who are unsafe.

Yuck D:<. Yeah sadly this happens a lot more than it should. Some people are such spoiled little entitled snots they become complete monsters the second they don’t get their way in a relationship.

people do this to me as a real flesh-and-blood person and they do it to my NB characters and i really really fucking hate it :/

I will beat these people with a rubber chicken!

don’t worry about it G b: but they are different actresses. I don’t know who any of them are though.

i have severe fatigue problems too, i’m already ‘borderline’ for hyperthyroidism and need to go for another blood test 3 months from now but the constant exhaustion and drainedness is controlling my life right now so i feel you there :<

catknapping replied to your post:Ah such a lovely morning I get up: I start crying...

i know that feel, g. hang in there man D: -hug- -also shoos the spider-

D: I don’t even know where the spider went either I hope it goes away forever. Hopefully I will be ok, my doctor appointment does relate to my bad memory+ chronic fatigue so hopefully I can get both examined and something done about it or at least get it diagnose so i can convey to people I’m not tired and forgetful in a healthy manner.

Like the reason I was crying earlier is remembering the fact that when I was trying to add my brother to facebook and wasn’t sure I was on the right page because I literally could not recognize his face. 

Now for context my brother isn’t like a half sibling I saw once in a blue moon growing up. This is a person I saw every single day pretty much for the first 18 years of my life and at least once a week for years after that. Its only in the last couple of years I haven’t seen him much and that’s all it took for me to forget what my own fucking sibling looks like. For most people that probably isn’t that heartbreaking to hear but for me it fills me with such an intense guilt because this isn’t suppose to happen. I can accept my face blindness making me forget just about everything else but my mom or brother are the two people I care about most in the world so forgetting either one just... destroys me.

I’ve had memory issues since I was a kid in various areas but since people don’t understand this I end up disappointing them a lot and its been tearing me apart for a very long time. I already have problems with isolating myself because I have anger issues/trauma/mobility problems/fatigue. I certainly don’t need a 5th issue that makes leaving the house stressful! Fucking goodness sakes its pathetic how much of a mess I am and there’s dick fucking shit I can do about it. More I try to “man up” and pretend the issues aren’t there more depressed I become because reality just keeps punching me in the face.