Andre Green - On Private Madness. Karnac.1986.

There is nothing in the id that corresponds to the idea of time; there is no recognition of the passage of time, and . . . no alteration of the mental processes is produced by the passage of time. Wishful impulses . . . impressions too that have been sunk into the id by repression, are virtually immortal; after the passage of decades they behave as though they had just occurred. They can only be recognized as belonging to the past, can only lose their importance and be deprived of their cathexis of energy, when they have been made conscious by the work of analysis . . . Freud, S. (1933) Lecture XXXI ‘The Dissection of the Psychical Personality’. SE 22,

“… In comparison with unconscious ideas there is the important difference that unconscious ideas continue to exist after repression as actual structures in the system Ucs., whereas all that corresponds in that system to unconscious affects is a potential beginning which is prevented from developing…. The whole difference arises from the fact that ideas are cathexes – basically of memory-traces – whilst affects and emotions correspond to processes of discharge, the final manifestations of which are perceived as feelings. In the present state of our knowledge of affects and emotions we cannot express this difference more clearly” Freud- SE XIV.

My eyes dart around a la mode Blanche Dubois after the mirror cracks in the Elia Kazan film, or how they would dart, if it wasn't seen. My eyes dart around, swimming in the air, and finds such relief in a sudden painting in the room. How wonderful it is to have little cathartic things in times like these! Otherwise I would implode, and maybe I should, in micro-mannerisms instead, explode. I watch a video and I am crying for my laughter, crying like a parody that Noel Coward would make a perfect rhyme about or Dorothy Parker would smile at with deviltry, it's so ridiculous it's poignant, crying with gratefulness like a cow that I am finding something present and tangible to feel for.  

It's not so different from Zooey playing Brennan cousin or DB father playing that guy in the 100th episode..None of them ruined anything, imo, of course. :)

And yes, anon, Bones was flawless last night. A great hour of television that moved everyone. 

Rule 1: Repost the rules Rule 2: Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post and then make 11 new ones. Rule 3: Tag 11 people and link them to your post. Rule 4: Let them know you’ve tagged them Tagged by proofandpudding! (thank you! and sorry for seeing this so late) (no fandom questions? I was so ready for those! :P) 1. What’s your favorite color? Depends on my mood, but I LOVE violet-purple. I also love some shades of blue and red. 2. Where do you live? At the moment (this is my second year), in Abu Dhabi (United Arab Emirates) but I am from Spain. In three months, I'll be living in the US (uni, yay!) 3. What song describes you? I don't really know what to say. I'll go with "Little Miss" by Sugarland. The first time I listened to it I cried because of how well it fit me at the time. 4. Do you have any special talents? I'd say no, but my parents and friends would disagree. I tend to do that. If I have to say anything, I have a really freaky memory for some numbers and dates, especially if they are related to something fandom-ish or something really important in my life. 5. What’s your favorite book? Ugh, I guess this depends on my age. I don't know. The easy choices are Harry Potter and THG, or even The Mortal Instruments (because of IB I am a bit behind on those though), but I don't know if I would say there are my fav books. I have read tons I'VE LOVED. I do love "Crónicas de la Torre" (a Spanish saga) by Laura Gallego (she is awesome) and a lot of books by Jordi Sierra i Fabra. 6. What’s your favorite food? As you have observed, I am NOT good at giving my favorite things. I cannot choose! Hmmm. Although it depends where I am and everything, I'll say Duck, especially at Asian restaurants (at least here in AD). 7. What is the last film you watched on the movies? Cinema? I think it was The Hunger Games, the second time when Spring Break ended. But soon it will be The Avengers. I haven't really had time to go. Damn you IB! At least I'll be done with you soon enough. 8. Do you wear glasses? If your answer is yes, what do you have: astigmatism or myopia? Nope. In fact, one thing about me is that my sight is pretty good. My brother does wear them and my parents do at times as well. 9. Do you believe in fate? Absolutely not, ludicrous. Sorry, couldn't help myself. I guess so. Everything happens for a reason, I gotta say that. Many things this past year have proven me that. 10. Do you want to have kids? Yes! 11. What makes you angry? Oh, this could be a long list. Some arguments with my family and those kinds of things... If it is referring to tumblr stuff, people who don't tag posts I DON'T WANNA SEE, fandoms that are really disrespectful, people who don't respect others' opinions... If we talk about faked (at times) anger? FOX. I love to hate them. Mine (I.don't.like.them): 1. What did you want to be when you grew up? Did you/Are you going to follow that path? 2. Describe one perfect day you've had/you'd like to have. 3. What does a book (or a tv show, or a CD, whatever you prefer) have to be perfect, in your opinion? 4. Who would you say is your spirit animal, or that person/character that you relate the most to? 5. Favorite childhood memory (if you want to say it)? 6. Celebrity, tv show, book, singer/band and/or movie that you hate, even if it is irrational to do so. 7. Who is your hero/role model? 8. Favorite moment of the day? 9. Current celebrity crush: 10. Movie that you can watch millions of times and still love it as much as you did the first time: 11. Favorite fictional anything (character, family, pet, object, vehicle, etc.)? Everyone in my dash has already done it...So I am tagging people randomly. If you don't want to answer it, it's fine :) And yes, my questions are the worst, I know.

11. Fictional character you relate to most?