#catechetics

This song. Just, this song.

My university requires an application process if you want to major in Catechetics, to be filled out & turned in during April of your freshman year. When I had a meeting with my advisor at the end of last semester, he told me applications were due in less than a week. Oops.

So, after a long and arduous few days of attempting to perfect my essay and completely stressing out/having a minor mental breakdown over it, I turned in the application. And thus, the waiting game began. Unsure of my call to youth ministry & parish work, I reminded myself that if I didn't get into the program, God had better things in mind for me, and He would use these desires for His glory in some form or fashion anyways.

...I still freaked out, of course, knowing my acceptance or denial would make or break the fragile dreams I had slowly pieced together over the past year. Not knowing what I wanted to major in when I first arrived, I had the realization of the possibility of doing youth ministry less than a week into the semester. Soon I was a declared Theology & pre-Catechetics major, and another few weeks into second semester, I realized I wanted to do parish work in addition to youth ministry. This call has been consistently on my heart, never wavering despite fear or doubt or lack of faith, since I first called my old youth minister about my initial desire to do youth ministry.

The letters, acceptance or not, were to be received this month, but with work, I haven't thought too much about the future as much as the present (definitely a switch for me). Today, though, I got a call on my lunch break from my mom that I had gotten a letter about my Catechetics application. And guess what?

I'm in. Which must mean the Lord wants me on this path - the hard path of a shy introvert in youth ministry and parishes. And, looking back on my life, it makes sense that this is where I'm meant to be, this is what I'm meant to do, this is God's plan for me. This is God's will for me. This is the first time in my whole life I've ever been able to say that.

Anyways, the song: faith and trust have been recurring themes throughout my faith journey, but especially as of late. Today is just a reminder that the Lord has a plan for me, as terribly cliche as that sounds, that I'm not just a happy accident or a purposeless wanderer.