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Okay. Here’s what’s happening. Things are hard for me right now. 

I want you guys to know this because I feel like I’ve ruined my chance at being the youtuber I wanted to be. It hurts to think about it. I thought I could bounce back and fix things and be more consistent, but there’s no just “bouncing back.” It’s going to take work and time.

I’m struggling with my mental health. I have my first therapy session this week. I’m pretty afraid. Hopefully I’m ready.

I want you to know that right now, because getting in front of a camera has become difficult for me. My passion for things spike and drain in heartbeats. I have always loved to read. I’ve always loved making videos. It wasn’t hard until recently, until things got worse.

Anyway, I just feel like I should explain myself. I’m finally taking steps I need to take to get better. I hope that it fixes things. I hope you know I love what I do and I hope to become more consistent, and to produce the best content that I can. That’s my goal. But it might take time to get there. 

That being said, I won’t be on Tumblr much. Tumblr stresses me out. Sorry. 

Thank you guys. I’m going to work hard. I’m going to do the best I can to get well and to really be the youtuber I want to be. I have a great husband who is supportive and loving. I’ve got great friends. I’ve got the determination to heal. That’s more than a lot of people get, so I’m optimistic.

I’m not going on a break, I’m not going to stop, but I’m not sure about how consistent my videos will be, and I might reach out and try new things. I’ll keep trying.