and every experience I haven't had

second hand nostalgia for the simple moments

probably worse but filled with an emotion

that i can't capture living as i am

in a decade of influencers and fire

and on the verge of an apocalypse i wish

i could take a step back and live

the lives of people just slightly older

i want to wait for my internet to dial up

i want to watch anime in eight parts an episode at 240p on a youtube that doesn't give a shit

i want to listen to my radio slowly descend into static as i drive out of town

i want to stalk a something awful forum, too broke to post anything

and your saying, those who did these things, that I don't, that its harder or worse

but thats why i want it

theres a texture there, an emotion that i can almost feel some nights as i listen to music on my hand-me-down ipod

or watch an amv that my sister grew up on

and i revel in that moment of small anachronism