From Baker Graham's Prayer Journal
I'm trying not to let Lily see it, but she's pregnant again, and I'm freaking out. I thought that after her last pregnancy went so well, that I'd be calmer this time, that I could take it, but I'm even more scared! It feels like last time going well means that this time, things definitely will go wrong, like I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop. And this time, it's not only me and Lily we have to worry about, but there's also little Zoe, who'll lose her mom if something happens to Lily, and I can barely look at them without freaking out. She's so sweet and so innocent and so loving and I can't even think about her hurting the way I was hurting when my mom died. I'm working overtime and doing all kinds of projects around the house to keep myself busy and keep the nerves under control, but it's only a matter of time until Lily notices...
