#caro rambles

and daeho? don’t get me fucking started. wtf was his character and why was it so fucked this season.

AND

Bobby being like, “Athena and I weren’t looking for anything when we found each at our lowest”

Like be so fr right now. You can’t tell me that these moments don’t hold significant value to buddies view of themselves and their lives and their relationship?

They really took two people who were beefing with each other for 1 (one) whole episode and then just built on top of that to the point where Buck literally runs away from his own home to go to Eddie’s because it’s the only place where he feels comfortable and safe after the lightning strike.

See, the thing is, there is not one answer that makes your art good. Because art has no rules. I just watched a reel on instagram and a person drew a foot completely differently from how I do it.

So much about art is about intuition and you can’t necessarily explain it to someone, even if you wanted to. Like sure, most of us start with boxes and simplified skeletons, but after some time we just do what feels best.

It’s something that confused me for such a long time in art school, because we all drew so differently from each other and I always wanted to please my teacher but I struggled a lot with being confident in what I did because I didn’t know if I did things wrong or not. The simple answer is there is nothing to do wrong.

You gotta need to find your way. And yeah, tutorials and finding teachers is a great way to do so, because you can watch another person do their stuff and it’s getting explained. But then you need to translate it to your art and it gets influenced by your penmanship and your taste and your goals.

They could have actually had Sam say "I can't do this alone."

And Dean would have replied "Yes, you can."

Sam would have realized "But I don't want to."

And then they could have talked about the amazing family they have found for themselves and the importance of pursuing said family.

They could have realized that they were wrong all those years, thinking they could never find someone other than each other and that their fixation on each other is in fact not healthy.

Sam would have become the leader of the American Men of Letters/hunters and together with Eileen, he would have trained new hunters. After first having wanted out of the hunting life, being a reject in the community and eventually coming to terms with this life, he makes a change as more than just the guy who killed Chuck Shurley. Sam is smart, has amazing leadership skills and is most likely the most knowledgable hunter of all. This is his achievement, not Dean's. His.

Dean could have finally settled down and understood that he can in fact have a somewhat normal life like Garth. It would never be the Apple-Pie life, but it would be everything Dean could have ever asked for. Dean finally accepts his feelings for Cas, now that he knows he feels the same. They would still occasionally go on hunts just for the fun of it, but for the most part they are out. At some point they find an orphaned kid on one of those hunts and decide to adopt it. Dean opens up a bar, not too far from the Bunker.

Cas is rescued from the Empty. Finally, Dean is the one who grips him tight and raises him from perdition. He realizes that he wasn't just rescued because Dean felt bad. He was rescued because Dean loves him and wants to be with him. Cas finally hears someone tell him "I love you". He has to give up his grace, but he doesn't mind because the past 11 years have been the best of his life. He is no more a cold, distant soldier, a celestial being. He is just a man with a family and that makes him happy, finally happy and at peace.

Jack would have changed the world with his newfound powers. He brings paradise to heaven and earth, puts the Empty back to sleep and rebuilds the other worlds. Once order is restored, he gives his power up to someone else (I have a specific archangel in mind🤪) and lets them and Amara handle it. Jack deserves to be with his family after everything they have been through together. He moves in with Cas and Dean and he even gets to be a big brother. Jack keeps his nephilim powers, in case they ever need them, but he finally gets to experience a somewhat normal human life.

In the end, none of them get THE Apple Pie life because it isn't for them. Their lives are irrevocably intertwined with the Supernatural, but they have built a family for themselves and they ultimately understand that they can have love without giving up everything that's defined their lives before. They understand that, no, their lives weren't entirely constructed by Chuck. It's like Cas has said before: God created the obstacles but they ran their own race. They loved fiercely, fought hard and truly believed in a better world because they wanted to. It was their choice. And now they are free to go where life takes them. But they will have to learn that life is still full of obstacles and that you don't get to choose your struggles, even after defeating God.

They find that being at peace doesn't mean no more problems, it means coming to terms with who you are and making the best out of the situation you are in.