For several reasons: 

1. Silvermere, Guildford was too expensive for what it was. Whilst it looks polished on the outside, the care for dementia residents isn't adequate. They need more care and a more personal touch. 

2. I need to start the clear out of the house. It's as though squatters have lived in and in order to sell, it has to be spruced up a bit. If I'm there, I could also have mum around as she knows and misses the place. 

We've been trying to broach the subject of my sister moving to London and the fact mum can't stay at home. We're organising a temporary respite at one care home that is going to be a 'hotel' (it helps it looks very much like a 5 star one) before moving in a couple of weeks to our preferred care home. 

It's all getting rather confusing and we've had some rather frustrating conversations with many repeated questions, tears and anxious pacing. 

I feel guilty. My sister's put her life on hold, is resentful towards mum, holed up like a prisoner at home and I'm pretty sure of it, suffering from depression. Whereas I've escaped - I've moved to London, I touch base everyday but I'm relatively free from all the issues that she's dealing with on a day to day basis. 

She's not getting any sleep at the moment - apparently mum won't sleep, wanders around, comes into her room, wakes her up and tries to leave the house. 

The other day, my mum confused her for her sister and asked where her daughter was.