#cardiacattack

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.I really appreciate tattoos and piercings, but I personally wouldn’t go for them myself? I have my ears pierced once, and I feel like that’s enough? I’m not a huge fan of ones that aren’t ears? my mum brought me up in quite a conservative way that the only people with tattoos were prisoners, and obviously I know that isn’t the case, but I don’t like the idea of permanently marking my skin with something as I tend to change quite a lot as a person (so basically I have commitment issues). I do love seeing the stories behind why people got certain tattoos etc, I find they’re really personal and tend to be reminders of certain points in their lives and fully respect that.

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?I used to! if I do wear makeup, it tends to be foundation as coverage, a bit of blush, some neutral eyeshadow, bar eyeliner and mascara with some eyebrow filling. and if I’m feeling pretty, a red lipstick. at the moment, I’m not wearing any makeup though, but I need to change that for when I start work experience so I feel a bit more put together and looking acceptable xD as to why I’m not wearing much at the moment, exam season just came and went, and most of the time I was crying the make up off and I wanted more sleep at that time. also did a trip to Tanzania, so I’m a bit more tanned than usual so my foundation doesn’t match at the moment… I’d really love to learn how to do my makeup so it actually suits my facial features though. (huge respect for people who can do perfect eyeliner)

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.

stability in terms of my physical and mental health. I’d like one month where I don’t have a huge wobble at the moment, and I’m sure my GP would appreciate not seeing me on a regular basis too. it’s starting to even out a bit, but I’d like to know what being stable and “normal” is like and not having a life full of issues every now and again.

I’d really like some decent grades for my recent exams and UKCAT later in the summer so I can apply to medical school. this one is kinda self explained, but after so many years trapped in a cycle of bad mental health, I’d love for this year’s work to be able to prove I can do this and I am “worthy” so to say of getting where I want to go.

I’d really like to get into medical school. I mean holy crap. do I need to explain this one?

We are going to play a little game called ‘whats your diagnosis of all of these symptoms’

Patient: Me, 21 year old female

History: -Scoliosis (corrective surgery done at age 12, in September of 2007) -ADHD (currently taking Adderall 20mg) -Seasonal allergies treated with ventolin and nasonex -Migraine headaches (used to be once a year or less, now once a month, treated with maxeran and ketorolac in the ER) -Chronic sinusitis for past year (one about every three months) -Blurry vision in right eye (Started August 2015, thought I needed a rx change, got new glasses, no change on the blurry but it has migrated more towards centre since August, used to be upper right corner of my eye and is now located just off centre. When I close my left eye if I look at something straight on everything to the right is blurry but not what I am looking at, if I move my head at all to the left but keep looking at the object it becomes blurry) 

I had sinus x-rays done and they came back ‘clean’, and I have seen every eye doctor in the city and ‘structurally there is nothing wrong with my eye’. 

Initially the doctorr thought it was the Vyvanse I was taking for ADHD, which I had been on since 2012 at 40mg, so we changed to Concerta which was a disaster and made the blurry vision worse, I have been on Adderall 20mg since late May and the blurry got slightly better without the Concerta but now that time has passed I have noticed it start to creep more towards centre. It is worse when I am tired and although I would say it ‘dosent directly impact daily function’ I do notice on the rare occasion I watch TV in the evening I tend to turn my head so I look more out of the left side of my right eye. 

I have a MRI booked for September but I am curious what all of you medical people have to say, as not only am I getting sick of the sinus infections I am wondering if maybe the two are related? Or I have some horrific tumour or disease that the MRI will turn up and that will be that.

If you have any questions or would like clarification let me know, but I figured reaching out to the medical community couldn't hurt just to see what people think.

Ommggggggg nights isn’t that bad, so dramatic

Okay first of all that was scary quick, before I even had a chance to ask YOU some of these!

10) Favorite feature of a member of the opposite sex?

Uhh, physical or like personality? Personality is intellect… the ability to understand my sarcasm. Physically I like dem abs. Not a necessity by any means (since I am seriously lacking) but they’re nice to look at. 

11) If you could travel anywhere, where to? 

Wear your fancy sweatpants pants!

WHAT WAS YOUR

1. last beverage: vitamineral water 2. last phone call: called my bestie 3. last text message: “Aitäh, kalla!” 4. last song listened to: Some random music in the background of an anxiety relief app 5. last time i cried: A few days ago probably

HAVE YOU EVER

6. dated someone twice: Nope 7. been cheated on: Nope 8. kissed someone and regretted it: Nope 9. lost someone special: Yes 10. been depressed: A bit

11. been drunk and threw up: No

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS

12. Coral pink 13. Tiffany blue 14. Wine red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. made a new friend: Yes 16. fallen out of love: No 17. laughed until you cried: Yes 18. met someone who changed you: Yes 19. found out who your true friends are: Not really 20. found out someone was talking about you: Not that I recall 21. kissed anyone on your FB friends list: No

GENERAL

22. how many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life: Most of them 23. pets? Not yet 25. do you want to change your name? Sometimes 26. what did you do for your last birthday: Partying with my closest friends 27. what time did you wake up today: 9:58 AM 28. what were you doing at midnight last night: Sleeping 29. name something you CANNOT wait for: My college degree 30. last time you saw your mother: Last thursday 31. what’s one thing you wish you could change about your life: My GAD 32. what are you listening to right now: The rumbling sound of the refridgerator behind me 33. have you ever talked to someone named Tom: Yes 34. whats getting on your nerves right now: Nothing really 35. most visited webpage: YouTube 36. blood type: B+ 37. nickname: Ninnu 38. relationship status: Single 39. zodiac sign: Gemini 40. pronouns: she/her 41. elementary: Was fun 42. high school: Was less fun 43. college: Is difficult 44. hair color: Blonde 45. long or short: Medium 46. height: 169cm 47. do you have a crush right now? Don’t I always? 48. what do you like about yourself? My ambition 50. tattoos? Not yet 51. right or lefty: Righty 52. first surgery: I have seen a few, yes 53. first piercing: Ears 54. first best friend: My sister 55. first sport: Nope.. Just nope 56. first vacation: With family to the countryside 58. first pair of trainers: Like I remember..

RIGHT NOW

59. eating: I’m full 60. drinking: Still that same water 61. im about to: Close up the gym and go home 62. listening to: Fridge shut up so faint sounds of Power Hit Radio coming from the gym 63. waiting for: My bed and Suits on tv 64: want kids: Yes, many 65. get married: Eventually, yes 66: career: In nursing

WHICH IS BETTER

67. lips or eyes: Lips 68. hugs or kisses: Hugs 69. shorter or taller: Taller 70. older or younger: Older 71. romantic or spontaneous: Both 72. nice stomach or nice arms: Shoulders 73. sensitive or loud: Sensitive 74. hook up or relationship: Relationship 75. trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble, trouble, trouble..

HAVE YOU EVER

76. kissed a stranger: No 77. drank hard liquor: Yes 78. lost glasses/contacts: Yes 79. sex on first date: No 80. broken someone’s heart: Hell yeah.. 81. had your own heart broken: Yes 82. been arrested: Nope 83. turned someone down: Yes 84. cried when someone died: Yes (Also the hard liquor part applies here) 85. fallen for a friend: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Study!!!