I think I might actually consider starting T after I graduate and I’m somewhat settled. I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately and I’ve been doing so much research about it but I think now I’m a lot more mature in my approach towards it. Taking small doses would definitely benefit my energy levels and eating habits. I wouldn’t mind having to take small doses of T all my life to make sure my bones are strong after I get to my goal body image, I would just have to adjust they way I eat and remember to consistently take it like any other vitamin/medicine.
I might even get a dog, once I’m decently settled and on my own. It would really be nice to have something to take care of (that isn’t human, tbh) that would show me the most unconditional love and acceptance and it would probably help me out as I’m working, paying bills, and taking T. It would also be nice to have a dog to remind me to go outside and walk/run/get exercise because I know that they would need it too and I wouldn’t want my dog to feel trapped and bored. I’ll get myself a rescued dog and give them a good home and teach them how to hear things for me that I can’t hear and how to do all sorts of fun and cool tricks! Most of all, I’ll give them all the love and care they’ve been missing.
Idk, this turned into more of a ramble, but it’s the first time in a while where I have felt more positive and certain about my future and I’m approaching a lot of stuff in a more mature way. That’s kind of why I’ve been off tumblr for a while (I’ve also been working and doing my senior animation project). This site houses too many childish and immature and selfish coping mechanisms and I really needed to get away from it all and really grow into the adult I’m meant to be. It’s not always fun being an adult but now, I’m more in control of my life. I understand more from my parent’s point of view and it helped me get over these huge fears of failure and being a burden to others.
My New Year’s resolution is slowly coming to fruition as this year goes on and only hope that I can keep making it better for myself and others.
