#capnkiid

AGH—- WHY

❞ if you hate coffee so much, why did you bother to come to a shop specializing in coffee drinks? ❞ confusion far more evident than his initial irritation, of course, nao hadn’t been going to SHUJIN for a long time, certainly not enough to place faces with names. unless they went out of their way to gossip or spread rumors about him. ❞ ... we have other drinks, hurry up && order, I have other customers to take care of. ❞ a hand rests on his ride, as he whips out his notepad && eerie smile, cultivated from years of greeting individuals due to his family’s standing and ties. 

          She’s silent as she watches the aftermath of that delinquent---What was his name? Ryu Sakami?---in the grade below her and the esteemed volleyball coach. The man had stormed off, leaving the blond behind. Hiyori couldn’t blame him, not with how often that boy picked fights with him. Only after waiting a full ten seconds does she speak up.

                   @capnkiid . // ( ‘ unprompted . 

                   why did it hurt ? why did it take ages for everything to hit him ? his mind was racing a mile a minute , thought after thought - he couldn’t stop . his brain continued the same phrase : they’ll all leave you behind . his breath hitched up at the thought , he was alone . he had no one but them to depend on . they were his rock , the entire reason he kept himself planted in this world - without them , he was nothing . a nobody , an orphan unclaimed to the world , only existing through the government --- but when they were gone , who would know of his name ? who would smile at the sound of his name ? 

                    he found himself vulnerable with the blond ; he caught him in an already shitty mood , & of course -- was concerned . he offered to stay with him , to talk things out , to let him unearth all the troubles he’s been hiding , he remained so strong in open doors , & behind them ; he struggled to even survive most nights . it didn’t help he felt as if he was a constant burden , after all , being only seventeen & fending for himself was difficult . he knew most basic needs , thankfully madarame was sure for him to be independent ; after all , the last thing that wretched man wanted was to actually play the role of a father figure & take care of him appropriately . yet , handling money was something he was never tasked with until now , his friends would all chip in sometimes to help him get home safely , joker even stopped by his dorm with curry from boss when he spoke of his disastrous eating habits . 

                    so when everything was said & done , when joker left to return home --- what happens ? morgana would surely go with him , but will the rest of the phantom thieves disband ? would that be their end ? although , grateful for being out of his abusive home , it grew lonesome . he normally had someone to at least speak to in his home life , now whenever he’s in his dorm - he’s met with silence . talking to himself is what keeps him from going insane , despite the thin walls the dorm had . he was sure his neighbors didn’t appriciate it much , but he paid them little mind . 

                    as the male sat there , finding himself slowly give into all his sorrows -- his small pity party was quickly interrupted by the blonds bold move . he lifted his face from looking at his own feet , forcing cloud - grey hues to find themselves getting lost within the boys mocha eyes . he’s always had such a beautiful color - one fox couldn’t help but note each time they’ve met . before he could even ask what the boy was planning on doing , his hair was parted , & the labeled delinquents’ lips were pressed just onto his brow bone . what was he doing ... ? his heart began to beat inside his chest , as a shade of red hue became scattered about his pale complexion . this is number two , when ryuji showed intimacy towards him with little warning . was this a sign ? was there something he was missing ? 

                    that’s when his heart began to ache , he found himself wanting just a little bit more , something that will last just a second longer . he’s been so attention craved his whole life , just the taste of it has him in disarray . fingers would extend out to gently hold the others shirt , not letting him pull away too far just yet - his forehead rested against the blonds , as a shaky sigh escaped from his lips . 

                   @capnkiid . // ( ‘ unprompted . 

                   this was a new sensation within his chest , how air seemed to be bubbling from his stomach to his heart . is this … what songs always spoke of ? butterflies within his stomach ? he’s never quite felt such a feeling before , & even more so , it made him begin to feel anxious . wasn’t a gesture meant for someone who was close in intimacy ? had they reached a point within their friendship that such a thing was okay ? was this something normal friends do ? sure , he’s read online that one should be able to practice intimacy with close friends , saving few gestures for someones partner . allowing a kiss on the cheek was one of the options left for those who only had a casual friendship , maybe … that’s what skull had in mind ? 

                    even so , his reaction seemed bashful . the motion was quick , & fox wasn’t quite the fool , he could see the others blush radiating off his face . his hand rose to gently caress the spot the blonds lips previously were , fingertips gently pressing against his own skin - only to put it against his lips . although indirect , it was still a kiss within his book . to think , he’d allow himself have such a loud , vulgar , boy be his first . even if it didn’t quite count ; but intimacy was something seldom shown within his childhood . in fact , this had to have been the first time someone has even kissed his skin . perhaps his mother did at birth , but within his teen years ; he was nearly starved of affection . the male has known harsh hands , & having rulers slapped on his arms whenever he didn’t do something exactly right , the tenderness of the gesture caused alarms in his head – as if something were to go awry . 

                    but , ryuji wasn’t like that . sure , he tended to get a little upset more often than not , & had a harsh temper – over all , he was a good guy , one with a bigger heart than kitagawa could ever dream of having . his own cold heart has seldom seen the light of day , rarely did emotions pour from his mouth to be heard . he kept it all inside , as if it was a carbonated soda , shaken up by a toddler . sometimes it’ll leak out , however the cap remained tightly closed for reasons . he wasn’t mentally prepared to allow someone in , it was terrifying — everything he knew , everything he once thought - was a lie , & his brain still has troubles comprehending that . he was alone , all he had was the phantom thieves , & even then – when akira returns to his home town , what will happen ? he was the main force driving them together , when he’s gone ….                                                       he’ll be                                                                      A L O N E .