#capiapoa

Unpronounceable name: Actually I think my favorite name I ever came up with was for a solarpunk novel I never got around to- her name was Charity Wayward, she was a bomb tech. For some reason, I really just liked the rhythm of the name.

Magic: Oh god. I haven’t felt good about writing in months, but probably when the words just Start and I have to get them down or lose them? Or even when the scene is creating itself in my head, and I build it up and tear it down about six times in rapid succession trying to make it look, sound, and feel Right. There are times when it feels like I literally have no choice but to be a writer- it’s not something I’m choosing, it’s a compulsion, something that just happens to me. Nothing else feels like that.

Harpy- Oooooh Capi I’m so glad you like Thirteen because I’m starting to love her more and more as I write her!

Shiv nodded back at that, heart heavy, then asked something that had occurred to him when they were talking earlier. "Are you mad at him?"

Tally's mouth twisted into a frown, as he looked over the zabrak. "I was. Now I'm just worried sick about him." He shook his head, then. "It doesn't do any good to be mad at Maul. You don't get mad at meteors for burning themselves up in the atmosphere."

Shiv was about to ask what provoked that comparison, but after a few moments thought with his mouth hanging open on the edge of it, he realized how accurate that really was. It wasn't a condemnation. It was just the fact of living with and loving someone who had been raised to be a weapon and who hadn't yet learned, quite, how not to value themselves by that scale anymore.

"Can I stay here?" he asked, instead.

Tally looked over at that, something going soft in his eyes. "Yeah, of course."

I actually really liked writing this scene and the preceding ones.  Specifically, that Tally did get angry with Maul, before realizing just how useless that anger was.  Because Maul would be aware of it, but he’d be at a complete loss with how to answer for it.  Tally was angry because he was worried and knew that Maul was actively harming himself by deciding to leave the medbay and go after Rabbit’s body, and that’s a sensible, legitimate way for a medical professional to feel about a patient they know is taking a dangerous road.

But I also liked showing that while Tally was angry, he was able to process the reasons and realize that it was pointless.  That all it would do would be add another piece of damage to the already mounting, devastating damage that Maul and the squad had been dealt.  Because Maul could no more have just sat quietly and patiently than he could have shaken off the years of abuse and conditioning and been a perfectly functional person.  He acted because it was the only thing he could do, because no other option ever even occurred to him.

Hence the comparison to a meteor.  Tally echoes me; I’ve said it before.  Maul was designed -- by conditioning, by abuse -- to be relentless and self-sacrificing to a goal (be it Sidious’s goal or the objective to a mission he’d been given, or in this case, his desire to get Rabbit’s body and help Rancor), to completely not heed his own well-being or lack of when accomplishing it.  His own health didn’t matter to him, and he paid for it.  Further, he paid for it in part because of how heedless he was in his youth, and also for damage he didn’t ask for in the past being compounded in the present.

AAHAHAAH just how many troopers will Maul kiss (or be kissed by)!

10/10 would read a whole chapter of Tally flirting

ARE THOSE LUCKY CHARM PJS LKDGDSFKL

everything was so chill and calm and then BEFORE?! AFTER!? oh man, Walker, that is Some Shit. Can't wait to see what terrible things are going to happen ahahahah

Heh.  I’m just hoping I have the skill and grace to pull it off and not panic over it.

That’s so disappointing. Whats the point of publishing a comic if nothing happens?? which is what it essentially sounds like. wheres the damn nuance!!

you follow your writers heart and do as you please! writing in ORDER?? Forget about it!