#cansomeonerelate

The worst part is when I forget my actual age, and just use my friends ages as reference. They are all adults!!! And having grown up as the ‘mature’ one in the family, I was treated as the oldest, despite my brother being 2 years older. I grew up being treated as 3 years older than I actually was. The other day, my friend and I were talking about Wattpad, and I calculated having started reading at 13. I said I started reading in 2013, when I was 8. That was an interesting problem to explain. And all my friends forget that I am 15, so they offer to let me come with on their midnight high runs to the McDonalds in the subdivision. Can anyone relate?!

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All my life I always knew I was different, I knew I always looked at this world different. I always faded into the background, yes I was social, but only to a few. I remember my elementary school counselor always took interest to me. She would catch me not playing like the other kids asking me if something was wrong. I guess I always just surprised her by just replying " oh nothing, I'm just thinking" I guess contemplating and collecting thoughts was kind of strange for a kid. But I know I still do this, I was never the popular girl in high school, no one really gets me. All I am to people is a pretty face, but I am much more then that. I study people, I watch how they act and I can read them very well. I feel like I can truly see the real character of a person by just watching them. Don't get me wrong I'm not always 100% right, but I am pretty good. I guess I really can consider myself a wallflower, I'm always there and I know a lot. But its not very common that I get noticed.