#canonyms

to the anon asking about titles vs. names; on first thought i don't like my given title, it's a reminder of unpleasant things, but i am still somewhat attached to it. it's who i was made to be; it is who i was, who i am, who i am not. it's a bittersweet title; it hurts sometimes, but i wouldn't get rid of it. i will keep it close to my heart. my name, i think i'm somewhat neutral on? depends on how i'm feeling. right now i'm leaning towards don't like it; but, it is still who i was, who i am, who i am not. while in the specified shift if i am called by my name, that's fine, but i don't think i would seek it out, unless i am feeling particularly strongly.

Very long nights of overthinking later, I fell into deep sleep and woke up from a vivid dream full of symbols that lasted about 5 hours leaving me with a light headache. It was a battle against both past and present, a visit home, a call... A lesson.