#can'texplain

Now Listening To:  The Who’s “Can’t Explain”

Dear You,                              I’ve been asking myself what will happen if you’re there being next to me, what will happen if I become one of the reasons why you wake up in the morning. or you being my sweetheart,me being your soul mate,your baby doll, your number one fan, the one who will understand, the one who makes you laugh because I have the same exact sense of humor as you… But here’s the thing ..I don’t want you to want me or care about me or think about me all the time. I don’t want you to need me or to cry over me or anything like that. I just want for something to come over you someday when you’re walking around or doing normal like getting groceries and something happens and you think of me and you miss me. I don’t really wanna occupy the biggest part of your heart.. For that one fleeting instant when you feel like you miss me will make me feel like they’re caving in cause you miss me… And then it’s alright.. As I’m always telling you. I’m not asking for anything. I’m thankful you made me feel special. I guess I’m really not what you made me think I was to you…

will be waiting,

Okay, so.. I had a baby.

& I have no clue who the daddy was in the dream, I only saw him as a blanket covered figure sleeping in a comfy looking chair at my grandmama's house and him mumbling sleepily at me.. o__O

But the thing is, my mama had to tell me I had a baby in the dream and then she handed me the baby and he was the cutest thing EVER. >w<

But mind you, I was still the age I am now, so.. 

TEEN MOM ALERT. :|

So, after I walked around and sang to my baby. (being deathly afraid that he was going to spit up on me while I was singing to him) me, my mama, and my grandmama when shoe shopping.

IN EUROPE.

Anyways, I  eventually found a pair of penny loafers..

(I don't even like loafers though..)

Then, my mama got mad at me for buying them (It was clear that she was jealous of my ugly-ass shoes, but whatever..), and when I got home and tried to talk to my daddy about her being mad, and HE seemed upset about something!

I think it was because of me giving him a grandkid so early.. o__e

So I stormed off to the bathroom and yelled, "I CAN'T GET ANYONE TO BELIEVE ME!"

Then, I woke up..