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ps honored by the tag + totally feel you abt the challenges of chronic pain management…….. it’s definitely a process to figure out what works and then also what works in the long term for your life…

hello my pal :) thank you for the ask, I hope you are also having a great week !! Chronic pain is my enemy I would kill him for us. The what works, what doesn't, how do I try to live my longest, best life is the bane of my existence tbh lmao I would LOVE to infodump about hockey thank you for the opportunity <3

Everything under the cut because tbh I don't know how long this will be...

Good morning!! Thank you for asking you’re so kind!

My favorite part of my day showed up in two parts actually. Kathie and her kitty Winnie. I work at a vet hospital and Winnie was due for a recheck with our internal medicine specialist and she’s the Sweetest Kitty EVER. I went and visited with her no less than 5 times yesterday because she’s the sweetest sweetheart. So visiting with Winnie was one of my favorite parts. The other favorite was when her mom Kathie arrived to pick Winnie up. She’s the sweetest kindest woman in the entire world. She volunteers at one of our local airports as a client service representative. She told me before that it’s a volunteer position she doesn’t get anything in the way of benefits or monetary compensation but she enjoys it because she likes talking to people and she enjoys being kind to people and it brings joy to her life 😭 She talked to me for So Long yesterday and I just sat there and chatted with her and smiled until my face hurt. She told me about Winnie’s silly habits at home, her volunteer position at the airport, and a few other things. My favorite story she told me was why Winnie was in her late kitty Wolfie’s carrier. She asked me if I wanted to know and I said PLEASE tell me. She said well my husband Bob was in the garage the other day and he fell. And I said Omg!! Is he okay?? And she laughed and said “yeah he’s fine” and kind of waived it off and then kept talking (hilarious!) and told me that the reason he’s fine is because he fell backwards in the garage and landed sitting down on Winnie’s carrier and it cushioned his fall and he was 100% okay but he couldn’t get up and she couldn’t get him up from the ground. So they had to call the EMTs just to help pick him up and first of all she commented on how big and strong they were lmao you go Kathie. And then she said that one of the Big Strong Men helped her husband up and then stuck his hand in the carrier and just popped it back out and un-collapsed it. She started telling me how the carrier door is still a little wonky so she still needs to fix it but for now Winnie can borrow Wolfie’s carrier because they’re not getting rid of it either way.

She also told me that they always ask Winnie how she got so smart and clever “but, oh! She never answers me!” And we laughed and I told her that maybe Winnie wasn’t answering her on purpose and she was gatekeeping the information and she giggled so hard and was like you know what!!! I think you’re right!!!

This is one of the Many Times I went back to visit Winnie and give her loves yesterday

Re: Star Wars opinions… yes yes and yes to everything, you have Opened My Eyes to East Asian Padme, love that, how does it feel to have only correct opinions, although maybe I’m in the wrong/(right?) circles bc I feel like Qui-Gon bad/pedestaling for Anakin is not too hot a take(?), and finally THE CHEWBACCA SECRET ENGLISH SPEAKER BIT I laughed out loud for real. Will live rent free in my brain from now on…

The bird journal is very excellent. It reminds me a bit of this bird sketching book I have (https://johnmuirlaws.com/drawing-birds/ <— long form book version of this basically), love the style of it. Sorry for besieging you with more bird stuff esp if they are not your favorite though 🫣 (completely understand why, sounds Traumatic).

REALLY appreciated what you said abt chronic pain stuff. I’m not very open about it with people irl. so. just v nice to hear that from someone who gets it u feel

Hope today was better except for the murder attempt from coworker… Wishing you a lovely weekend hopefully sans additional tribulations!!

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Hi my pal!! I hope you’re having a nice weekend!! Thank you for your kindness every time you've messaged me, but especially in the last few days. I really really appreciate it ❤️ self compassion is definitely something that I'm working on.. slow but steady wins the race ig ..

I cannot take credit for East Asian Padme. My best friend pointed out that a lot of Padme's outfits are inspired by Asian fashion and one day said that Padme is East Asian in her heart and I was like you know what you're SO correct. On one of my older tumblrs that faded into the ocean and I stopped using I somehow accrued a large number of Qui-Gon lovers/apologists mostly people who wanted to fuck liam neeson tbh so I think I was simply in the wrong circles lmaoo. Chewbacca english speaker is unironically one of the funniest thoughts Ive ever had thank you 🫡

That bird drawing thing is super cool!! I bet the book you have is awesome bc that guy's work is gorgeous!! I appreciate that its not just 'circle .. add details. done!!' I like that he showed the whats under the feathers and "Underneath the feathers, a bird looks like a plucked chicken" made me giggle. And no worries!! I don't dislike birds and I think they're beautiful I just appreciate my personal space with them in person!! If a bird got to close to me in person (unless it was like.. someones pet) id be a bit nervous but I appreciate birds on my screen! Whats your favorite bird?

I'm glad what I had to say made you feel understood and not alone! Chronic pain conditions can be so demoralizing and isolating. If you ever want to talk more about it I'm here 🫶

Today is better, thank you. It's still a bit scary. I've never experienced anaphylaxis before.. One time my throat was a liiittle uncomfortable after I ate off of a charcuterie board without realizing what I ate had been sitting on the board with walnuts but that was just a little discomfort. I didn't even need benadryl or to seek care. I'm still in my 72 hour window where I could have a second wave of anaphylaxis with no additional exposure until tomorrow around noon so it's still a little scary but I'm taking my antihistamines as directed and my pharmacy was great about filling my new EpiPens ASAP so I have those now so I have the resources I need! I know what to do if anything happens. Now i'm just exhausted and focusing on taking care of myself after and doing what I can to take care of myself both physically and mentally. This honestly just doesn't feel real?? I've never had allergies like this. I've never had throat swelling or had my lips go pale/tingly so its all just weird and stressful and I'm just focusing on resting and taking everything one step at a time, which includes a lot of napping. I'm grateful for my friend Tristan, she has had anaphylaxis before unfortunately and was talking to me while this was all happening yesterday and they're the one who convinced me to go to urgent care. I didn't realize quite how serious my reaction was until they encouraged me to go and I went to urgent care, so Im very very grateful for her ❤️

Hii my pal <3 thank you for the message I love an ask game!! (If you want to go send my pal b an ask here’s it’s rb!)

3. what are you looking forward to right now?

My first appointment with my gender affirming care team is in TWENTY SEVEN DAYS !!!!!!!

11. what kind of music is stuck in your head a lot lately?

1) hey huge congrats on two weeks!!!!!

2) YAY CUDA SEASON PASS that sounds so fun, I didn’t know they included perks like events with the players (!) hope u have a wonderful time and tbh sounds like as a cultured Cuda Appreciator you’re one of the best people for it haha

3) clone wars enjoyer?! excellent taste??! (also even Riyo Chuchi enjoyer??) curious about your other star wars thoughts if you want to share them at some point

4) re: crazy week, yeah just there’s a lot of work stuff and a lot of personal stuff at the same time and not a lot of time to spare for me atm… hanging in there but as I’m sure u know stress is not good for the Chronic Pain Conditions™️ so hopefully things will improve soon

5) as might be apparent I love birds and am thus so happy you saw a bird like my emoji and thought of me 🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛

hope you have an awesome Monday and thx as always for indulging me!

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Hiiii my pal!!!! I hope you had a nice relaxing weekend!! I tried to answer this on my lunch earlier but I started getting horribly sleepy and had to lay down and close my eyes for a little while on the little couch in our break room #chronicillnessyoubitch I'm gonna put this under the cut bc i YAPPED 😬😬