Hello, my name is Cam! I'm 28, almost 29. I am a bi trans man, which is the best gift the universe has ever given me!

I've been a San Jose Sharks fan since childhood. Other than my sibling, I don't have any irl friends who like hockey so I made this account as a place to scream into the void about my hockey thoughts. I started being a passive Pens fan a few years ago. This year I've gotten really into the SJ Barracuda. This year I've also been getting into a few other NHL teams. I'm working on learning more about the PWHL!

Logan Couture is still probably my Favorite Hockey player. My current favorite on the Sharks roster is Will Smith. A few of my other favorite players are Sidney Crosby, Quentin Musty, Luca Cagnoni, Igor Chernyshov, and Connor Bedard. A few players I have a soft spot for are Kirill Kaprizov, Brent Burns, Leon Draisaitl, Seth Jarvis, Matt Rempe, Fraser Minten, and a few others! I don't know much about the PWHL but I'm starting to learn about it and get into it. My favorite PWHL teams are the Boston Fleet, Seattle Torrent, and New York Sirens. I'm excited about the Detroit expansion and will be insufferable if we get a San Jose PWHL team!

Please be aware that while I started this blog to talk about hockey, that's not all you will see here. As my bio says, I'm here to talk to myself and if you're vibing with me that's a bonus. By that, I mean I talk in the tags 24/7 and post things for me. That includes reblogs of hockey, sexualizing hockey players, and posting things I enjoy, but that also means I use this account as kind of a diary/journal! I do post personal posts both positive and vent posts. I do try to tag negative things that might be triggering, but please be aware that these may be present here. I've dealt with clinical depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation, and disordered eating since I was 12. Occasionally I do vent about these things but I tag them (block: tw sui ideation, tw ed). I do not post pro ed posts. I am very committed to my recovery, but shit is hard sometimes! I will also reblog art that makes me feel seen. Please be aware, posts may include blood however I will never post pictures related to self injury. Posts involving blood are usually hockey players or to do with vampirism. I also do not guarantee that this will not contain nsft content so I do not want people under the age of 18 following me.

Other than hockey you are guaranteed to find: bats, vampirism, cute animals, tv shows/movies i love, art, poetry, memes/shitposting, neurodivergency, posts about my disability/disability rights/anti-ableism, anti-racism, games I'm playing and whatever else strikes my fancy in the moment!

I'll tag this post with a few of my favorite tags! I like tagging things because it drives me INSANE to know I've reblogged something and being unable to find it. I tag hockey players as LastnameNumber (E.g. Smith2). I tag my personal posts as cam.yaps. I feel most other things are mostly self explanatory. I'll probably continue to update this post as I feel is needed! Thanks for reading and have a good day!! :

Dni: people with “men dni” (I’m a man you’re breaking your own dni), feeders/feedee (no beef with yall it just triggers my disordered eating/body image issues), homophobes, transphobes, racists/MAGA/trvmp supporters, anti-semites, xenophobes, isreal supporters (free Palestine all day every day!!), whatever other bigotry you've got brewing. We're all about loving and supporting each other here. and last but certainly least .. M@PS/PDF files

If I ever were to lose you, I’d surely lose myself

no yeah that’s a perfect place for a vending machine actually …