#calthoughts

which seems so simple and obvious, but like, god it’s so real. because i’ve seen a lot of kyman haters say that he’s evil and gross and deserves to suffer. but i, the God Empress of kyman, never once thought he was a genuinely bad person. he’s definitely fucked in the head and needs help, but i think he absolutely has shown the capacity to do good and just wants to be loved. 😭

“wakin up in the mornin. thinkin about so many thangs” sad girl meme audio but it’s me ruminating over the version of Eric near the end of “Tsst” before Liane becomes emotionally incestuous with him again and ruins it. because that is who he actually is as a person beneath all the dysfunction. stronger boundaries — he refuses Liane’s insistence that he go to the show with her at first!! — more stable, more confident, etc.

like i still think that he would have the good parts of his personality now — bold, crass, witty, funny, passionate, etc. — but he would be so much better at distress tolerance and emotional regulation. i also think he’d be much quieter, though definitely not completely stoic or silent.

like, for example, there’s so many different interpretations of who has more vs less control in their relationship.

Does Eric egg Kyle on because he’s a brat who wants Kyle to take control and put him in his place?

Or, is it because he relishes making Kyle huffy and yanking on Kyle’s pigtails until he gives in?

there’s truly no one correct way to answer this, because there’s so much evidence in both directions. the added layer that Eric is also super mentally ill blurs his intentions even more.

i just really love the diversity of art and fanfics and interpretations of not just Kyle and Eric, but really any other character in the show. it’s a level of freedom that is unmatched to any other fandom i’ve been in.