Aug 10, 2024
I've got this instinctual subsistence farmer peasant mindset re: weight like my dog gained (needed) weight and now i can see her little belly fat pouches (very cute) and in the part of my brain that stores all the inherited trauma (dislike of Germans, divorce prepper mindset, etc) i immediately think "yes good, she's finally a little fat, she is now more likely to survive the winter" as if we don't live in an apartment building with heaters and not a tiny straw roof village house
#got the same mindset with humans too#i think my grandma does as well because like uh 8 ish years ago when my mom lost a bunch of weight bc of stress both me and grandma went#wtf go eat right now I can see bones that should not be visible without xray. go i cooked a nice fried meal for you with nutrients and#calories.#(obviously being the disordered bastard i am this mindset like many other things applies to everyone but me i still have an eating disorder)
