hi hi I fell asleep last night but I feel like this needs to be said. soo basically you mean the entire fucking world to mean and so much more. you are completely unlike anyone I have ever dated (uh let alone met). whenever I'm with you hours feel like seconds and I get so caught up in you that I forget everything else that's happening in my hectic life. I never want that feeling to end, where it's just you and I and nothing is as relevant. it's highly possible that I'm slightly crazy, but nobody has ever had the same effect on me that you do. plus, there's an even higher possibility that I'm crazy 4 U (ayyyeee!!) anyway... I had no idea what the hell I was doing before you came along, but luckily I kinda know what I'm doing now. one of the biggest things to me is that my anxiety on a daily basis has become significantly better, and I can not thank you enough for that. my anxiety used to consume me, I thought about it all the time and I worried about when it would finally push me over the edge. but, you (that's not a sentence I KNOW). you calm me down so much and give me that ability to focus on the better things. to have my thoughts of anxiety replaced with thoughts of an incredible person like you is... wow. you are SO special to me and I want to cry every time you don't see it, but I can't really say anything because I'm pretty sure that's how you feel about me. it's just so much easier to love you rather than having a mental battle between the things I like and dislike about myself. I don't know if that makes sense, but I'd just rather focus on you than myself. you're so freakin cute and you're pretty hot at the same time and your backwards hat kills me EVERY DAMN TIME and I really like your hands a lot because they're the perfect mix of rough and soft and I could get lost in your eyes but I wouldn't be complaining and it's kinda funny because you always tilt your head to the left whenever you kiss me because you're left handed which I'm not used to but it's cute and I really like it a lot but I like you as a whole even more. so so so so so much more. God, you are honestly the fucking love of my life and I wouldn't want it any other way. you deserve SO much more. but thank you, thank you for everything you do for me and thank you for being an absolutely extraordinary boyfriend.