#caedee

I fight an endless war with myself

One without knives or guns

But the thoughts in my head and the life at hand

Trying to make the next move before fate does

And before the dark of me takes over my body

It is trying to be in control

Its parody lies

In that I hurt myself to save myself

And in saving myself I hurt myself

And where parody lies

A truth lies

In perhaps a war that never existed

Or was never meant to be won

It was all my head

That’s it

But any war

This war

Is hard

Its exhausting

And im drained

And it could mean life or death

Why do we keep living?

She’s broken inside

Still holding her breathe

Trying to piece back

What was once her

Your harsh words are but a lullaby to my ears

I’ve found warmth in your empty embrace

Trauma are just memories

The dark is no longer scary

It hugs me

tight

As lighting strikes like clockwork outside my room

It is still too bright

With the lights turned off