he had asked bash to go with him when his therapist told him to come in, knowing what was to come. the entire walk there, hazel was silent, though he reached over to hold bash’s hand in his. this wasn’t usual for them, but the touch of comfort was something hazel needed in those moments, as he felt his heart ready to leap out of his chest. were he to be autistic, he knew his life would change. and he wasn’t sure yet if it would be for the better. there were a lot of pre-conceived notions he needed to un-learn, and that would only come with time. but right now, he was scared, and he didn’t know better. when they got to the waiting room and sat down, hazel looked at bash, tears brimming in his eyes as the possibility of change weighed on him heavily. he didn’t do well when his routines changed, when his life switched up randomly. and he’d always blamed that on the way he grew up. but maybe it had to do with something deeper than that, maybe it was because of the way his brain was wired, he’d never even thought of the possibility before. he always just thought he was just...different from others around him. “promise you’ll stay?” he meant that in two ways. one, as his friend, and two, in the waiting room while he spoke to his therapist. he held on to his hand a little tighter as he held back the impulse to soothe himself.