i started this run about a month ago. i've been doing... poorly. in all aspects of my being. and i have reached ep 26 again.

every. single. time. that i have rewatched this campaign. this episode comes around as i am at the lowest point of my current character arc.

it's my favorite episode. i hate it with every fiber of my soul. every single second is heartbreaking and gut-wrenching and. i love it so much.

of course it logically makes sense. i start watching the campaign when i start feeling bad and things continue to be bad and a month goes by and wow it's time for episode 26 what a surprise that everything is bad and i need to cry. it's not really that impressive.

it's the emotional catharsis that i so desperately need. every. single. time. and this time is no different.

it still somehow feels meaningful each time. this story is so important to me. and it hurts to watch the build-up and know what's coming. and to catch new little things each time (this time it's how tal talked about the tea that Jumnda offered the group).

but it still brings such relief to see it play out. for the cast to make it through. to know there is another episode that comes after and another after that and so many more stories for the nein and the rest of exandria to tell.

(all songs are taken from my 2008 ipod that hasn’t been updated in literal years)

“So lets sink another drink/cause it will give me time to think/if i had the chance I’d ask the world to dance/and I’ll be dancing with myself,” 

Dancing with Myself (Billy Idol) - I can’t quite explain it but somehow I felt this song about someone dancing without caring what others thought was very Molly.

“I get the joy/of rediscovering you,” 

Faithfully (Journey)- if you ignore the romantic lens of the song, honestly I felt this worked especially for those remembering Molly further down the road, or just a Molly introspection song - “they say that the road is no place to start a family” has an ironic twist for this family of misfits, and there’s a whole stanza about circus lights. 

“I’ve heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason//bringing something we must learn/and we are lead to those who help us most to grow,” 

For Good (Wicked)- Molly and the rest of the Might Nein; Look, can I just say how much I love that Molly’s death kind of became the cinching point for the rest of the gang and their mission? “Leave a place a bit better” became a huge part of their personality as a group and it was all because of Molly. They could have just left Molly in the past after he died and Taliesin introduced Cad but instead they continuously keep his spirit in the group. 

“It’s been a long day without you my friend/and I’ll tell you all about when I see you again,”