#c00lestkidd talks

Dude I need someone to shoot dysphoria, i feel so sick everytime i feel flesh rather then my fur or move my hands and get suprised by how light they feel without my claws. Or even making room for the horns on my head only to remember they aren't there.

At least with gender dysphoria I can be comforted by the fact im saving up money for surgery

WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ABOUT KIN DYSPHORIA??! Atleast for my more human one I just died my hair pink and started wearing my beanie (felt so good...)

BUT I CANT JUST SPONTANEOUSLY GROW FUR, HORNS AND MY CLAWS??

Im saying this cause for my entire life I've had an irrational fear of fire. I always loved it, liked to burn small things like paper or cardboard. Yet I could never fully relax around it because I was always slightly terrified.

I mean in my memories I set Mr elliots place on fire with my friends that one time (and many other things-) I always thought my intrest of fire came from my life as C00lkidd while my fear was just irrational but nope!

And then there's two time who took a billion tries cause I could only glimpses after they stabbed me or after I got them.

Then theres pr3ty who's not in my memories at all and I got her after 1 try (got it done faster since face blindness wasnt trying to stop me)

If you ever ask me to describe what you look like to me its always very base details because thats all I can remember unless I try really hard (unkempt hair that goes to the shoulder, mean eyes, fair skin, etc etc)