#byeeeeeee!!!!

okay so you asked, and I’m here to deliver. buckle in, we gon be here a minute.

So the whole thing with Eddie and Buck in the gym. we’re seeing Buck behave in a way that we’ve never seen him behave before, and I just need to be candid about that for a minute. We’ve never seen Buck behave aggressively or with anger like we’re seeing in this season.

now bare with me a second I’m about to draw a parallel here.

before season 3, we had never seen Eddie behave aggressively or with anger before.

you see where I’m going with this?

so Eddie’s trauma that led him to his aggressive behavior, was the death of his wife, the near-death of his best friend, who he co-parents his son with, the near loss of his son, that he co-parents with his best, and then the loss of his best friend, via a lawsuit. 

now I know we don’t really talk about this arc here, and I don’t really want to tbh, but we have to, to get through this, so this is where we’re going.

Eddie’s trauma led him to his need to release all of this pent up anger, which in my opinion was anger he had at himself. I feel like he blamed himself for a lot of those things that we just talked about, and that’s really where his anger comes from, he’s mad at himself, whether that’s mad at himself for letting those things happen or mad at himself for not being able to “control” his emotions or his feelings over those things that happened. But I feel like Eddie is mad at himself.

So we know where Eddie’s anger and aggression came from, now we have to look at Buck’s situation here. Buck is showing a lot of anger in these situations, and imo valid.  esp if he’s dealing with the root of his issues, with not being good enough for anyone, and possibly the root of his abandonment issues (we don’t know yet).

I think that Buck is having a lot of emotions and is completely unsure of what to do with those feelings, so they’re bursting out of him in anger, and in angry moments like we’re seeing in the Promos.

Now I think that we should backtrack a little bit bc these are not violent men. they’re not men who are aggressive, at all. so to see these characterizations of them feels out of character, to say the least. 

You’ll just never convince me that Eddie Diaz, the man who was so soft with his son, having a conversation about how dogs see humans if they see humans as bigger, less hairy dogs??? and being so tender with his son, you’ll just never convince me that, that man has any aggression in him. you just never will. I don’t give a fuck what the canon says, I’ll never be convinced.

in the same way that I’ll never be convinced, that Evan Buckley, the man who wears his heart on his sleeve. the man who helped organize an entire Christmas dinner, including a foster home at the firehouse, so that his best friend, could spend Christmas with his son. the same man who found a way for his best friend’s son to skateboard after feeling very discouraged. you’ll just never convince me that this man, Evan Buckley, has any aggressive tendency, you just never will. 

now with that being said, I think that we need to look at what exactly Buck’s trauma could be here, to have him acting so wildly out of character. These are just things that we don’t know yet, and I think that whatever trauma Buck is dealing with in regards to the situation, is really what we need to be addressing when looking at these scenes where Buck is having these outbursts.