#byeeee!!!!

Helloooo everyone!

Bit of a quick post but I’m effectively immediately taking a 10 week hiatus from tumblr in order to focus on my studies since my finals are getting really close!

This also applies to any other social media I use such as twitter or discord with myself only responding to my close friends or family! (also complete withdrawal from any sort of extra curricular stuff too!)

I know I already don’t post much so it won’t be all too different but I thought it’d still be good to say!

When i’m done with my finals i’ll basically be free for a year (or more) so — expect a bunch more art then! :D

But for now this will be the last you’ll hear for me in a bit! (with some exceptions probably here or there) so bye bye for nowwww!! :D

so i've been having a lot of thoughts about my ex

our relationship ended really weirdly...like, we broke up because he said needs time to help himself

and he actually cried telling me how much he loves me

but still, i was so, so heartbroken

because i didn't think he was going to just up and leave like this

because that's what he did :))

he asked me if we could always still talk and i said yes

but now, if i ever try to talk to him, i get left on read

...but then he can snapchat me whenever he feels like it

i feel like i'm being toyed with !!

SO HERE COMES THE DREAM

RENJUN has apparently been my friend for a lil bit

and he's...well LOL he likes me a lot

and here i am

realizing that fuck man i have feelies for renjun

and so me and my ex kept fighting because he was being possessive.....

even though HE broke up with ME,,

but then he pointed out that he said that it was because we needed time to help ourselves, but that we still love each other......

and then here's renjun, being there for me and always supporting me :')

so BASICALLY my ex was upset bc he could tell that i was moving on

and yanno what?? it felt good.

but my ex was making me feel awful.

but then, renjun was telling me that nobody can control my happiness. if i'm happy, then that's nobody's business to mess with like that.

and bitch now i DEFINITELY knew that i had feelings for renjun

so when i said i didnt want to start anything for a while until i was sure what i wanted and didnt want

he :(( was so :(( sweet :((

he said that he would stick around because we started as friends first

and then we hugged and we kind of mutually kissed and bOY OH BOY I COULD FEEL THINGS

but we just kinda giggled and watched some animated movie afterwards but yeah 💞😂💓

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and it was weird,...,, it was like there was a moral of the dream that was kind of written down somewhere?

where it said

'if it's meant to be, it'll be'

and i have NO idea who or what that's directed towards LOL but yeah!!

that's what i dreamt about earlier HahA

also this is 100% true though i'm not playing