#bwaaahhh

inspired by @luztoyed to draw the guys as paul newman and joanne woodward! overall happy with how these drawings came out other than the fact that george looks like twenty years old in the top drawing! there are so many really great pictures of newman and woodward and i WILL be referencing them in the future. tysm rie for the beautiful concept <3

Is it weird that like. Whenever I see my friends talk and do art trades and play video games without me I feel really sad and bummed out but it's also my fault bc I'm choosing not to participate. Does that make sense??

Bc I've always kinda had this desire for attention from my friends and I tend to feel left out or bummed bc my friend is doing something with their friends and it has nothing to do with me

Ofc I'm not gonna lash out at them or have this deep seated hatred or whatever happens in The Joker but like. Idk. It feels bad man and it really sucks when I think of telling them about how I feel bc it's MY problem not THEIRS and I feel like I'll drive them away

I've been thinking that I feel like this bc my first best friend was really neglectful and would ghost me periodically until we decided not to be friends anymore but I'm not sure tbh?? Maybe there isn't even a cause for this, I was just born this way

This gets worse when my friends are talking to each other about stuff I don't understand and I feel super left out and I really wanna participate but I can't and it sucks so fucking bad I just wanna be able to talk to you guys but ik that I don't have to be in every single conversation

Sometimes I'll feel bad when I send art to someone and they don't say anything about it and then I'll send it in another server or something and beg for attention bc I just need to fill the gap (this doesn't happen often but it's still annoying)