#buttryingnottobe

On the one hand, I want to be ambitious, productive, and make my life into something I can be proud of. I want a successful career that I can look back on with pride having made it on my own. But even looking into all these awesome internships, that I'm positive I'm not qualified to even submit my resume, gives me failure anxiety. I feel as though I'm going to fail, so why bother putting in effort. This is my first hurdle into the real world. And on the other hand, is the desire to never leave my bed and survive with internet and tea. How I could afford these things would have to be magical money.