i cried in front of so many people today at work oh my godddd i could literally cry again talking about it it was so embarrassing but its over i did it i made it through!!!
today was my first day serving the entire upstairs by myself and i have little to no training (a days worth basically) and was so confused for some stuff. the nurses were incredibly patient and understanding thankfully. at one point i had a question and was left completely alone in all kitchens so no one to help. had a panic attack and started crying bc everyone is waiting and relying on me upstairs so someone who used to work in the kitchen volunteers to help me and she helped a lot but then i get called down and asked to explain what happen and get told that she isnt supposed to do that, like they were upset she was even in the kitchen when i was alone and had no one else to ask for help?? but the manager for the kitchen came in after and i filled her in and she kept reassuring me that im not in trouble and she thought i was trained more and she was like whaaat so she is gunna come help me on wednesday so im not alone again n yeah :,) it all worked out but i still feel so anxious n like i cant breath but i did it!
