#bts diary

Jeon Jungkook 🥰 my biggest inspo in life, motivation, hard work, dedication and music

I remember when bts went on a break and we all predicted that Jungkook would come back with a tattoo and than he came back with MANY on his HAND. I was so shocked!! I didn't think they were real in the beginning but I am very glad that they are because I love them and I love their meaning. Seeing them always makes me very happy.

The one that immediately catches your eye is the word "army" on his knuckles. I think it's so sweet and meaningful that he choose to tattoo that! I have a bts tattoo myself, and now it kinda feels like we are tattoo buddies.

Incorporated in the army tattoo, there are also the names of all the members. The "A" is written is such a way that it looks like an upside-down "V" and the word army naturally has "RM" in it. Jungkook also has the letter "J" on his ringfinger that stands for "Jimin", "J-hope", "Jin" and perhaps Jungkook himself.

In between the letters there are 3 little stars to decorate the whole thing.

He has 2 more tattoos on his fingers, one of a crown on his index finger and one of a smiley on his middle finger. The smiley seems to be in a questionable mood.

He also has a couple of tattoos on the base of his hand. On the left side he has a purple heart that obviously connects to the phrase "I purple you" and everything that the color purple means to bts and army. On the right side he has the army logo. Lastly, on the side of his thumb, he has the numbers 06-13 which is bts's debut date.

He has more tattoos on his arm, but sadly we haven't seen them yet. He probably has a "dead rather than cool" tattoo because you can see a part of that phrase on his wrist and he mentioned that he likes that quote in a vlive. Some (very) low quality pictures hinted towards some interesting designs on the rest of his arm, but we'll have to wait a bit longer to see them for real. I know that when it happens I'll be freaking out about it!

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Warnings: *language*

Entry #2

Dear Diary,

It’s exams week and my roommate invited me to a Exam Party, or it should just be called a party because fuck exams while you can get waisted and forget about responsibilities for a while. Without hesitating I gladly took her offer to take a load off.... well only because I knew he would be there.... Jimin.

It sounds crazy but I just want to see him. Call it obsessive but I need my monthly dose. I him want to be unattractive, to be an ass- Shit I want him to be a horrible person so I can forget him. So I can stop wanting to know him. I don’t really know what it is!!!! He probably doesn’t even remember who I am. Yet alone that he was my first kiss or the fact that you were his. It’s elementary but I can’t shake the feeling.

One way love leaves me black and blue inside ...........

What a soppy fuck ^~^

Jimin’s POV

Dear Namjoon,

I Caught her looking at me again. It was more subtle this time around than the last. It made my hairs stand😂😂 not in a bad way. It made me feel warm. She makes me warm. But she’s too good for me, she’s a good girl with a great life and my life is a whole issue. An issue no one needs to be burdened with. So I cover up my sadness by throwing parties, going to parties, a whole lot of sex, drugs, and alcohol.

It seemed to work out for a moment but two years ago I lost you. You helped me cope with most of the various issues in my life and when you left me everything fell apart for me. I can’t admit it out loud but I miss you so much it hurts, you wouldn’t even be remotely proud of the man I’ve become, and neither would she if she knew what kind of man I am.

The only reason why I’m writing this to you is because my shrink told me it would help me heal. But how can someone so shattered be put back together again.

I miss you ,

I've been talking a lot about how bad my anxiety is and how little I can do about it. I am not in the position to get more therapy right now, I don't have the energy to try new things and I'm not stable enough for big lifestyle changes. Talking here on tumblr is great, but outside of that I still hide my mental health problems and I often find myself in situations that make my anxiety worse with no way of getting myself out.

I'm kinda stuck, so I've been thinking about small, low-budget solutions that can give me some relief that won't require a ton of effort. Think about comfort items, things to fidget with, and things to distract me.

Something that always gives me a lot of comfort and a really safe feeling is bts, and even more so, talking about bts. To use that to my advance I've decided to start this little project called the "bts diary". When I get anxious I will use this space to ramble about bts. I will most likely write about music videos, concert stages, albums, run episodes, etc, etc. I write these things for me and me only, and they probably won't add a lot of value to people who have already seen these things. I will mostly likely just describe what happens and how it made me feel. It's purely to make me feel happy and safe and to get some well needed bts rambles out of my system.