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you make me smile :))))

sorry that he blew you off :( i just feel really stupid because i feel like he's wasted time. kendall carlos logan and james are all so genuine and wonderful and i wish one of them was my dustin. does that make sense? he doesn't really deserve to be my favorite anymore. that's why i leaned more towards james lately. atleast i know he won't let me down or disappoint me. and as far as who i stay for i really don't even know anymore. it's hard to just jump to someone else since dustin has been there for such a long time. idk. i get very serious and overdramatic when i talk about this stuff. and the fact that i wasted a whole experience on dustin saddens me a lot.

So Emma and I got there a little before two and we were like within the first 15 people there.  We met Eden who was standing right in front of us and had a KILLER sign (which they made her take apart). I also saw Kathryn who was there with some other people from tumblr. So then at three they checked us in and we were standing in front of the gates when Momma Schmidt just casually walks by and no one noticed except for us. She walks back in the venue like no big deal. Christine was super nice and she kept coming to talk to us, making sure everyone had water. So then we got let in, we walked single file to the theater and we sat front row for soundcheck. I was like freaking out because from where I was sitting, I could see them doing their things backstage. Anyways they came out and answered some questions (which I wasn't very impressed with) and sang Music Sounds Better With You and Windows Down. Carlos and I were jamming out man. He kept looking over at me and we were like banging our heads to Logan's parts. I was literally the only one jamming in my section. Then they hoola hooped which was awesome and someone asked them what their biggest fear was and Logan said something happening to his family to which we all "awed". So then we went to take our picture and since we were first row, we were also one of the first to meet them and we literally had NO time to prepare. So I go up and kinda wave and say hi before b-lining it to Kendall and Carlos. Carlos was like hi how are you and I was like good thank you and then they took the picture. So then I turned to Carlos and was like can I have a hug and he was like of course. Just as security was pushing me away I turned to Kendall and was like PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE and he kinda chuckled and gave me a hug. So then yeah I was flipping a shit. So Eden, Emma, and I went to get food and walked around. We got our picture taken at Nikon so I'll post that. So the concert. Rachel Crowe was awesome. She's so precious and has a great voice. Cody was ehh. You could tell he was lip syncing. His dancers were amaaazing though. He's only fifteen though so, I don't know, it felt weird watching him dance like he did. So then I turned around and saw Nicole and Amanda.  The four of us then went to some vacant seats near the isle because we were smack dab in the middle with some dads in front of us. So then BTR came on and it was fantabulous! It rained for like five minutes and Logan and Kendall kept talking about the rain. After the show we went outside with Amanda and Nicole and hung out for a little bit and when they left we waited by the buses while my dad was on his way to get us. Overall it was just really great. We were rocking out the whole time and now my voice and throat are shot. I would definitely do it again in a heartbeat, no doubt about it. 

THANK YOU AMANDA!!!! <333