#brother!will

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It's a splitting headache that wakes me up. Before I even open my eyes, I can tell it's going to be a bad day, and it's incredibly tempting to roll over and go the fuck back to sleep.

 (Brother!Will Solace/Trans y/n )

A/N: Happy Pride Month guys! I can’t believe it took me this long but here it is!! I hope this is what you wanted in the first place and please let me know if you liked it, also let me know if I fucked it up cause I feel like this isn’t good at all ;-; (Thank you @credxncebarebone for helping me as usual <3 <3) 

Warnings: None, just a really cool sibling.

Words: 689

It was one of those days again, the kind that just forces you to stay in bed and forget you exist.

Lately, I’ve been feeling, more like noticing some things about me that don't feel right. An example could be my voice, every time I speak it sounds like it is someone else’s. I know that’s because I was born in a body that doesn’t match my soul but, How do I explain that to people?

“Hey y/n, are you with us?”

“Huh?” Looking around the table I see all my siblings staring at me, shit “Sorry Kayla, I wasn’t paying attention”

My sister looks at me with worry on her face “You sure you’re not sick or something?”

“I do feel like I’m dying” I look down to my plate, which is empty “And my food is gone too, well then this is great”

“What’s wrong, y/n?” A voice from the other side of the table asks, and I found a pair of blue eyes staring at me, is my brother Will.

“I’m fine I didn't sleep that’s all” I give him a reassuring smile hoping that he’ll stop asking, and he does.

I was in the cabin, doing some cleaning and helping Will with some of the injured demigods when he asked me again.

“So are you going to tell me why you’ve been so quiet these days?” He looks at me out of the corner of his eye and I know Will’s waiting for an answer, I shrug “Nothing, just a girl-” I cut myself off, thinking that this isn't a “Girl thing”  and I shake my head, sitting on the edge of the nearest bed “I don’t know”

“What do you mean?” Will comes closer, he sits next to me and holds my hand.

“There’s something wrong with the way I look” My voice sounds nervous, and it trembles while I speak

“Most girls feel insecure from time to time-”

“Not like that” My heart drops to my stomach and I look up at Will, he’s so confused that I feel the need to explain to him what is going on “I don’t think I am who I am supposed to be”

I can hear the wheels moving in his head, and then I noticed the change in his eyes, like a sudden realization.

“Oh” he moves awkwardly on the bed but stays by my side “Keep going” 

So I tell him everything that’s been on my mind for so long and I only realize that I’m crying when I feel the tears strolling down my cheeks.

“I don’t think there’s anything wrong with you, if anything I think you’re the bravest person for standing up for what you want for yourself”

“What?” Will smiles at me and hugs me tightly “I don’t think you understand what I-”

“I understood everything you said, and I love you, no matter what you do, you have me and it’s totally ok not to be ok with who you are right now” I smile at his words and stay in his arms for a little bit longer, feeling like I’m safe from all the bad things that had hurt me through the years.

“You know, there’s a lot of things to do” He laughs “You’re gonna need a haircut and proper clothes... I guess I also have to start calling you my extremely awesome Bro instead of Sis, all of this only if you want?”

“I guess so” a sudden thought comes to my mind and I ask him nervously “But what about the others? You think they’ll understand?”

“Y/n, have you met our father?” He raised an eyebrow at me, smirking “Apolo has changed his appearance to date more than just one mortal, trust me they’ll take the news just fine”

“Right” I say laughing  “He should stop that though”

“I wish he would stop”

“I feel you, Bro”

i'm gonna focus on the parts i haven't written for you before like the not wanting to sing in front of people and being 'darker' than the rest of the apollo cabin

will learns how to deal with your mood swings the best

normally you try and hide away from the rest of the cabin when you're struggling with feeling angry or moody for no real reason

but will got into the habit of finding you and getting you to talk about how you were feeling

he was patient and understanding and it was sweet that he cared so much about his older sister

as one of the older siblings in your cabin, the younger ones tend to look up to you

which sometimes puts a lot of pressure on you, especially if its a bad day

it was one day when you were hanging out in the cabin with a couple of the older siblings

when one of them began talking about how stressed they could get sometimes

apollo kids have a certain reputation for being sociable and happy-go-lucky and sometimes they don't want to be, maybe they're upset and because of the stereotype they feel like they have to hide the negativity away

more and more of you reveal how you feel like you can't show the 'bad' emotions even if you know that's bullshit

it's will who suggests you all talk to the youngsters about this because it sucks that so many of you feel this way

you end up opening about how you hide your moodswings and it's exhausting to put up a front for everyone

it's decided that you'd all gather around a campfire

no singing, no instruments to hide behind

you were very grateful that there would be no singing

but the whole cabin were surrounding the campfire

the older ones took turns telling their truth

you needed to make sure they were going to be okay, that they knew the image of the apollo cabin wasn't everything and if they were struggling, they could come to one of you

everyone who was struggling now knew they could turn to their siblings for help and you felt more comfortable in the cabin

it's wasn't just you that struggled and felt dark moods sometimes

that's a very reassuring thought

thank you for your patience, i have a burst of energy today so let's do this!

as one of the older members of the apollo cabin, you tend to be the one the younger kids come to

this was especially true when it came to will

he didn't know anyone and you took him under your wing

people tend to expect a lot from apollo kids as they're associated with a lot of things- healing, music, artistry

you showed him that he didn't have to be good at everything