#britbrat

Here’s to 25.

Having too much fun @redlobster with @SamohtLion Stroke! Stroke! Stroke! #britbrat #shrimpboat #canoeing #viking #shrimp #endlessshrimp #redlobster #iplaywithmyfood #playwithfood #gigglefit #rowing #stroke https://www.instagram.com/p/B3x7ilslxH7/?igshid=mx8pdwy05kzm

My Lil Homie Is Back @BMoneyMurdaa #BritBrat @WraithATL She's The Real Deal

Wish I could rewind to this time 😌 #caleb #britbrat (at LaFollette Park)

Do I honestly look like the type that needs validation? No. I've never been the type to try to fit in. I always ride my own waves which at times I drown, leading to my own destruction. But that's the best part of being me. Simply being me. People will come and go. I never ask for people to stay. I can't. I don't know how to own people like that. Because I don't own them. What's the point of setting yourself up for disappointment? You literally break your own heart expecting the same from others. I've worked so fuckin hard to just be me. Broke all the molds. All the conditioning that females belong in the kitchen under the hand of a man. Uhm, no. No one showed me the way to live. No one. I did learn by watching those I loved. Mirrors as others are bigger teachers than we think. I'm literally so grateful for all who have stopped by in my train wreck of a life. I don't regret anything. If I was to die anytime soon, I literally would be OK with it. Because deep down, the love I have given was never returned. And those with it feel it. Regardless if they want to or not. Regardless if they treated me like complete shit. Those that had made me stoop to their level will always be in my limbo. How dare you attempt to make a fool of me. Like, no. My love is far too grand to be taken lightly. Even if I'm psychotic as fuck, I care with my whole fuckin soul. Literally my loved ones and the children around the world suffering, will be the death of me. But oh fuckin well right?? I can only live to please myself and help those that I can. Being a humanitarian, my soul shreds at what it longs to do but you have to deal the cards you are dealt with. One step at a time. I'm alone and very lonely. Yet that has never stopped me. I guess this post was mainly to remind myself how much in love with myself I am. Not even in an egotistical way but a more nurturing side. Going to battles alone in order to be ready for the greater war. Same with materials. All this shit is just shit. The fuck do I care about scraps of metals and wires. I don't. I do care about the well being of others. I always believed in leaving ppl better than how you found them. Srsly. Lead by example and they will follow. I mean they're bound to copy anyways might as well make it positive. Another rant I guess. I study myself and I just want to know more. I'm hungry and believe in the progress. I can only go up from here. Blessed.