#brilyn

He gets it. He understands me. He apologized to me and said he realized even though I'm depressed I've been reaching all along. It's not advice I need. Just help. I need comfort. And he knows it now. And I'm sobbing because all I ever want is understanding. This is amazing. He is amazing.

In my relationship, is it weird that we want to heal each other? When we visit certain spots where our memories hurt our hearts, we'll turn to one another and reenact that moment but with this someone who cares like we want them to. I'll turn to him and he'll say, "there's something I need to do" and he'll kiss me beneath the vineyard. It's sweet and he'll close his eyes and dust away the old memory, replacing it with this moment. Is it strange? Is it strange that the both of us were so hurt that with each moment we needed to remind each other to brush away the past so we could be together now? Is it strange that we're so close and so far away because of the baggage we each hold on our backs? We stand together, our hands held so tight our fingers might break, but we hold the weight of our past on our shoulders and walk. With each passing memory, another is tossed away. Each moment a new memory is made and our load grows lighter Until one day we can stand up straight And hold hands Our fingers relaxed as we trace forever In the palms of our hands.

He is my sun on a warm beach day as waves crash against my skin... And he called me his moonlight.

1-26-16 I'm completely in love. My heart stayed full without disipating in feeling for so very long. It was amazing... He's amazing.

I remember telling Brilyn that and he said that he'd fix it. He said that he's an engineer and he'll build something for me that repairs my puzzle and this new piece, his piece, will be special and will fit right in place. It's a new painting now. The portrait is something entirely different.. Probably a girl with an open locket, free to love as she pleases... Will his piece be the one that stays inside?

I was able to say best boyfriend ever and mean it today. We were talking about kid names for fun and we both liked named that ended with AH and it was nice to hear him agree with me. This was a good step for me.