It’s been a while.
That’s probably how a lot of my posts have started since I don’t keep up with Tumblr as often anymore but I have so much on my mind that I needed a place to just write it all out. After re-reading my tumblr posts from the last few months of 2015, I was laughing because of how anxious I sounded and how much stress I put myself into because of a boy. But I also realized how important it was for me to find someone that puts God first and wants to lead me closer to Christ despite what we want or feel. Those months of anxiousness and prayer really did pay off because I did find those exactly qualities in Brian. I’m not the type of person to simp or the type of person to show so much emotion but there is just so much respect and appreciation that I have for this man that I just needed to write it all out.
This past week has definitely been filled with a lot of fun and exciting new adventures as well as arguments and disagreements for the both of us. Who knew that this week would be the week that the Lord would test our limits and test to see where our priorities lie. I’ll admit that towards the end of this week, we both had definitely failed miserably at putting Christ as the focus of our relationship and gave into our own selfish desires. But I praise God for His grace and the Holy Spirit for really opening our eyes and reminding us of what we agreed to do from the beginning of our relationship. I know that I’m a strong person and I know what I want but I never knew how easy it would be for me to waver. Satan really has his way of catching you at your weakest moment when you least expect it. But I am thankful and blessed to have Brian to remind me that we’re human and sometimes we’re going to fail miserably but it all depends on how we react to these situations. After many tears and a sincere lengthy prayer together, we’ve found our way back on track to our goal which is to glorify the Lord in our actions and thoughts. I don’t even know how to put all of this into words but in short, I am beyond blessed to have such an amazing Godly man as my boyfriend who willingly denies himself and his wants in order to pursue holiness and encourages me to do the same. His desire is for us to grow together in Christ and work towards building each other up more intentionally. I always thought that I’d be the stronger one in general in this relationship, but clearly I was wrong.
Praise the Lord for forgiveness, grace, and His love which is what we’re both clinging onto.
P.S. He’ll probably never see this because he doesn’t know that I have a tumblr. Hahah.
Update: He’s seen it because he actually knows my Tumblr handle. HAHA.
