May 8, 2017
There is so much I want to say but can’t find the words for. This weekend I did something painfully right. I finally admitted to myself that in a world of choices, it’s OK to put yourself first. To put your mental health first, your academics, and personal goals or wishes.
Today I finally managed to effectively study and revise for my exams next week. I was able to get past the numbness and focus. Yes, I still feel like my heart is heavy, and when I dwell too much, I still feel an unrelenting feeling of guilt, but I need to move on, and not let this affect my studies or get in the way of what I want to achieve.
It’s OK to want to put yourself first, to focus on yourself and love yourself. To not to want to be in a relationship.
