I find myself in the position where I need to take a first step. Well, here’s the first step. To be followed by another step every day until every step has been taken. Over the next few years, I will be revealing more and more of my brain project right here on B Blog World. It would have been cool if I could have just called it B Blog, but unfortunately, it was already taken.
The reason my first step has become a blog is, quite frankly, I am very afraid to take the real first step. I know it’s fear because when contemplating why taking the first step has been so difficult, I thought, “maybe you’re afraid” and had such an anxious visceral reaction, it left very little doubt in my mind. And why wouldn’t it? The two big ideas I’ve attempted so far haven’t exactly panned out the way I had originally thought they would, and most seeds of other big ideas never grew into anything significant because they were ground down to dust by lack of support from people who share different values than I. Why would this time be different? It’s a tough feeling to shake. And this idea is huge.
Perhaps putting my progress out into the world, even if I am the only one who ever knows it exists, will help me feel more accountable for taking action. Like I have an invisible audience cheering me on, telling me to never give up! The invisible people would be so disappointed if I gave up on myself. Maybe my invisible fan base will grow to such enormity it will drown out the negativity and allow me to persevere and triumph. Yes, invisible people! I will not let you down. The seeds of progress will grow into a super tree of awesome, and it will all be because of you!
Stay tuned tomorrow for the revelation of the seeds of my brain project.