I’m trying to learn to remember that when I start trying to rationalize and convince myself that everyone is a bad person, it’s just a symptom of my bpd called devaluing. Bpd individuals tend to meet somebody and form an idealized version of that person in their head, one that is perfect and would never hurt them. When they begin to spend more time around the person and realize that they are not that idealized person, the devaluing stage begins. You can recognize this stage by looking for signs like that you have unexplained rage towards somebody, you start hating everything that person does, even the little things another person could do without making you mad, but it’s just because it’s them, your perspective of them has shifted to solely negative opinions, you find yourself saying you hate them silently, etc. I really need to put even more work into making sure I do not unfairly devalue people. It’s mainly subconscious, but I know if I work hard enough to identify the triggers and symptoms when it is happening I will soon be able to discern whether I am devaluing or simply don’t like a person for a rational reason.
