#boy needs it

Juniper to Ethan when she realizes he’s just so tired and disheartened:

How do I feel about bottom!derek?

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Anon, bottom Derek is the thing that gives me life. I can’t even. I am all for versatile Sterek and I love bottom Stiles, but bottom Derek.

I just have so many feelings over it. I want Derek to be loved and cuddled and cared for. I love the thought of Stiles spending hours stretching Derek, taking his time because Derek deserves it, deserves to feel cherished and paid attention to like no-one else has ever bothered to before, and Stiles would pay him so much attention, whispering praises into his skin about how well he is doing and how good he looks clenching around his fingers. Derek would get off on how Stiles’ face looks as he opens him up, maybe a little shy about it because this is more than he has ever given to anyone. Derek needing Stiles to fill him up, to have him all around him, to feel him everywhere. Sometimes he’ll beg for it and Stiles will pound into him nice and hard, other times he just needs that closeness and Stiles will take it slow, looking into his eyes the whole time, both breathing heavily, unspoken I love yous sounding between them. On lazy mornings Stiles will slip a leg in between Derek’s and take him that way and jack him off at the same time, still loose from the night before. On days they know they will have no interruptions they will spend the whole day in bed. Maybe on those days Stiles will put a cock ring on Derek and rim him for hours, teasing him until he is a crying, whimpering mess. Taking Derek apart and holding him after, putting him back together again- and that? That is Stiles’ favourite thing, knowing Derek trusts him to make it alright.

Then there are the times Stiles needs taken care of and Derek will open himself up, teasing Stiles while planting kisses anywhere he can reach. Derek will ask to ride him and of course Stiles loves that more than anything. Derek always goes slow when he rides Stiles, loving the way he falls apart under him. Derek’s thighs are the 8th wonder of the world, Stiles always says. Derek can ride him so, so slowly for what seems like hours without needing Stiles to flip them and take over. He loves slowly clenching around Stiles, dragging out each sensation for as long a possible until Stiles starts babbling like he always does when he’s close to coming. Derek likes marking Stiles when he’s on top of him like that, painting that pale skin with his cum as Stiles pumps hot and wet inside of him. He wears a plug sometimes, Stiles bought it for him because Derek likes Stiles to stay inside him long after they are finished, and while Stiles loves to spoon and give Derek what he wants, finds it’s sometimes easier to just plug Derek up instead while he goes to make some food. (Stiles is always hungry after sex, while Derek is always sleepy.)

I don’t associate “bottoms” as the partner that needs to be taken care of, I think you can have it both ways, but there is something about Derek Hale being a bottom that makes me want to sob a little bit. There’s a reason why nearly every fic I write has Derek as the bottom, with a caring, loving Stiles telling him he’ll take care of him. All I want in life is for Derek freakin’ Hale to be taken care of, handled gently and loved deeply and bottom Derek fics just do that so, so well.