Boy B. I hate how awkward I am with you. I have so many regrets with you. I should have been truthful with you from the start, instead of trying to be your friend. I value our friendship, but it's so painfully clear that I like you more than just our friendship. At least, I hope it's clear. I fancy you so much. You were beautiful tonight. You've grown so much since I last saw you in January. God, your hug was what I longed for all night and it didn't disappoint. I wish I didn't pus you away as much as I did tonight. I should have made you my priority. There was just so much going on. I wish I told you how handsome you looked. Your face is breaking out so much, but you still look as beautiful as ever. I wish you were more socially active, but I guess it's for the best. I can't wait until I see you again. I will see you again. I'm not going to disappear from your life. Not without a goodbye. Maybe the next time will be goodbye. But that wouldn't be fair to A & S. Even T, who actually loves me and appreciates me coming to visit. All I can hope for is that you don't forget how much I care about you. And also for you to return my umbrella.