#boring alert

younger sib who, with their limited knowledge, just gets off on the thought of kissing

younger sib who takes their chance and has to stammer over why they can’t walk straight to mom and dad.

So a few people on here and maybe some readers who've been following me since this all began will know about my "hand issues". I don't really know that I've talked about it on tumblr that much? I don't know. I made a somewhat positive post a while ago. I look back at the first chapter notes I made like two years ago? being like "I have some hand pain, need a break!" Not knowing how foolish I would be.

To make a long story very short, I've had the same hand/wrist pain for a long time. I can't type or play games or do anything dexterous for any long amount of time. Typing clocks at maybe ten minutes? I've had a lot of doctors appointments, and a lot of people kind of shrugging their head at me.

I'm tired I guess. You get a lot of hopeful promises and nothing changes.

I'd like to add that many people have it much worse than me and I do acknowledge that! I mean I have hands lol some people don't. I can technically write, some people can't. This is all just me whining.

We are at the current stage where the next round of promises and assurances have reached their end. I braced one hand for a month and… It did something? I think they thought I would do something. Then I braced the other, same result. I hope it did something lol. Therapy... more therapy... it's the same so far. I keep saying to the doctors "Well maybe it just takes time" and they just kind of look at me. Nothing has changed and it's just been more painful recently..

You might be looking at me right now and thinking, well obviously you're doing too much! That's why it's not getting better. Or maybe too little? No, my sweet summer child, I can assure you that I'm not, but your thoughts are very much appreciated. I have professionals for that.

You might be tempted to give me advice, to share your experience based on my vague post, but trust me when I say that I have heard it all. I've done it all. All the stretches, the therapy, all the exercises, the yoga, the needles poked into your muscles, the exercise balls, stretchy grip things, putty, weights, waxy hands, the hot sand shit, massages.. Eventually you just accept it. So I'm not interested in unsolicited advice.

I don't how many people even exist on Tumblr or who would bother to read a boring personal post, but one of the most annoying platitudes I find is the "hope you feel better soon". I know it's just a generic phrase of well wishes, but I guess it feels a little invalidating? Sure hope those chronic issues clear up... yea me fucking too. It's not a cold lol

But I know people are just trying to be nice.

But you all lied to me.